Stupid Obsession

So, I have an embarrassing confession. I still think way too much about Kate/Gauri, aka the girl who carried on a friendship with me for years under a false online persona. You can read about the saga here.

That I think about her at all is absurd, especially because the only reason I really think about her at all is that she happened to be carrying on a false persona. Granted, we were certainly close back in the day, but the peak of our friendship was 2007. We barely talked at all from 2010 forward until I  confronted her about the whole fake persona bit. So, obviously this isn’t a person that I should be thinking about on a daily basis. Not that I am thinking about her on a daily basis, but I still think about her too often.

I think what drives the slight obsession I have is mostly just the mystery aspect. Yes, I figured out that Kate was really Gauri, but I still don’t really understand why she felt the need to create Kate or plan trips with me that could never happen, etc. I am also suspicious that she may have influenced my life in other ways. There were weird coincidences in our lives – once she happened to already know an okcupid girl that I went on dates with (Robin). Did she set those dates up somehow? Another old okcupid girl, Calesha, once claimed to having received phone calls from a random girl saying to “stay away from her man.” I’ve always thought Calesha was just a lying nutcase, but maybe that person was Kate? Is it possible she manipulated that relationship too?

I realize I am probably just being a nutcase myself and that Kate likely had no impact on either situation (although I still find it an overly strange coincidence that she genuinely knew who Robin was upon me saying her name). Moreover it doesn’t matter anyway as it’s not as if I have contact with either of those old okcupid girls regardless. It’s pointless. It’s interesting enough to reflect on, but seeing as how none of these hypothetical questions will likely ever be answered, I should really just move on.

So, yes, this entry is pointless other than I am perhaps trying to embarrass myself out of this stupid obsession. Why do I waste my time thinking about this person anymore?!