Impatient but practical
So, Heather spent 9 days with me last week. It was wonderful, as always. It ended quickly, as always.
There has been some talk of making things more permanent between us. Talk of relocation possibilities. And with this talk comes bursts of excitement, but also lots of practicalities to think about. Including how it would be a minimum of a year before we would probably even seriously move towards doing it.
A year is a long time.
I feel like I keep hindering our excitement with practicalities. There’s this beautiful sweeping romantic story 7 years in the making happening in my life and all I can say is “But what will we do with your cat?”
I just don’t want to get swept away in romance and make rash choices that we aren’t ready for. At the same time, I don’t want to waste away what we have and let it wither all because I was too worried that we weren’t being reasonable.
And I am tiring of the nightly phone calls caused by distance. The nightly phone calls that have been going on for years now. The calls just feel so, well, distant now – like we talk for longer, but say less, trying to fulfill a yearning to touch when all we have are words.
I want her here with me. I want to stop waiting.
I understand this. One year is a long time, but if you think about all the time you have been waiting, one year is nothing. If Heather really deserves it, and it seems to me she does, don’t let that go! “what will we do with your cat” can be romantic if you use the right connotation 🙂 (just trying to cheer you up) Things will go just fine, you are both into this 🙂 you’ll manage to do it well
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Ryn: The thing is, Joonas and I are separated with 4000km. The way our thing ended was terrible. His cousin basically separated us and he never stood there for me. I ended up by moving here again because I was emotionally destroyed. I appreaciate this friendship now, but your note made me wonder, what if we were in the same city? would we be able to be really “just friends”? I don’t know…
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I agree with Alex. You’ve waited so long already that to me, a year doesn’t seem so bad in perspective. It gives you the time to do things the right way, make good, sound decisions instead of rash ones, get your stuff in order, etc. Just make sure that you spend the year in the planning process instead of the sitting-around process. And I would LOVE to write a book based on your relationship.
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yeah, a year is nothing here. this has been seven years in the making and it will pass by like nothing. also, !!!!!! also, not a cat person?
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Matt, I can understand the longing part. You guys have been in each others orbit for seven years. Yet, I do agree with the others that…you want to make sure that you get your business in align before you guys move in together or move to the same location to be together. Moving in with someone is serious business, and it seems like you being rational is practical and mature.
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You want to make sure it is what you both want, and you want to make sure that you guys will work on yourselves and the relationship when you move in. I know. Jonathan and I have been living together for 5 1/2 years…and it is a lot of work, My Friend. So, you guys having a year to get your priorities in order…sounds like a fine idea to me.
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I loved your line about the cat. It make me cackle within the depths on my apartment, frightening to hear i’m sure for my neighbors. If you two want it to work, really want it to work, it will work. But go slow my friend, this is a step that you can only really take once. It’ll work out.
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wumpy is right … the romance part is exciting, but going too fast could ruin the whole thing. I’d say, moving closer is great, but moving in might be a bad idea. BUT! I’m excited to see where your relationship will go after a move … quite a happy story that would be 🙂
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If you want her with you and you want to stop waiting, then don’t worry about the practicalities because they will fall into place. Worry about getting it all started so that the sweeping romance can happen. ~I’ll be
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I know it’s hard…I was five hours away from my husband the first year of our marriage. It sucked, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do, but we did it and I’m so happy now. A year is nothing! That’s what I tell myself anyway. You can do a year of anything 🙂 Good luck!
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This sounds like a tough situation. I’ve had a slight taste of similar, but nothing so long or as deep as what you are writing of. It must be frustrating and hurt.
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I think you are long overdue a go at this to see whether it works…
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ryn: because I don’t have a valid reason to feel sad.
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if you’re not sure or ready after seven years . . . there’s just nothing rash about it.
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Do it now or forever wish you had sucka!
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Long distance relationship is really hard. But I admire your attitude towards your relationship. I mean, most of the time, this kind of relationship doesn’t work out properly. I wish you all the best! ryn: Thanks! =)
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RYN: Those people bother me so much and in my opinion shouldnt even call themselves citizens of this country. How disrespectful.
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Hi you 🙂 Here is Sofia (Alex R.) I’ve made this new diary, entirely friends only. Can you add me to your bookmarks and friend list? I’ll delete soon Alex R. and from now on I’ll start writing here. Have a great weekend!
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