Nowhere Fast
Things aren’t going anywhere fast as far as the new “more social” Matt goes. I’m faring a bit better on okcupid as far as finding interesting girls, but it still seems very forced and awkward in terms of transitioning from the online chatting to real-life meeting. Ideally, I’d like to just sorta set up random dates with girls to hang out with and do the “get to know you” stuff in real life, but apparently there’s online trust issues and all that. So, instead of chatting online with girls thousands of miles away, I’m chatting online with girls ten miles away. Maybe that’s some sort of bizarre progress . . .
I’m still probably going to meet Robin eventually, but I’m especially trying to play it cool and not seem overeager towards meeting with her, since she’s the one I’m most interested in. I’m sure I’m trying too hard and it’ll just backfire, but, at least I’m trying.
Also, hypocritically, I think I may be a bit scared of actually succeeding at turning this online stuff into real-life stuff. It’s just that I don’t have a clue about playing the dating game and all of these girls are much more experienced than I am. Honestly, it was the real-life part of this that I was a bit worried about – I had no idea it’d be at all difficult to charm online girls into meeting me. Apparently my online suaveness isn’t as effective as I once thought.
But, anyway, I’m not sure how well it’s going to go when/if I end up transitioning to real-life dating. Really, I’m still a bloody virgin, whereas most girls are going to be expecting sex after date 3. It’s doubtful that I’m going to be comfortable with that. And, no, I don’t tell any girls I’m a virgin, because I just don’t like the assumptions people make towards it, however true they probably are. I’m actually not very open with any of the okcupid girls, but I don’t think most of them notice – like most people, they seem to enjoy talking about themselves. Anyway, the sad thing is that what I’m concerned about is the “real-life” interaction, and, at this point, I can’t even get to the real-life interaction! Yes, it really is that hopeless.
So yes, I’m going to continue to try to meet people in a normal, in person way, starting tomorrow. Things can only improve.
random noter- i think you have some very crazy assumptions about women. Some women perhaps have the expectation of sex after date 3 but there are many more that would prefer to wait and would be totally okay with someone who isnt experienced. regardless if you have had sex with someone else its always a new game with someone new. just have fun and relax i’m sure it will be fine.
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You’re staying up waaaay to late! I think that you are being way too hard on yourself. I know that you want instant gratification, but it’s going to take time. Things aren’t going to change over night. I do agree with just meeting in person and getting to know them at that point. I don’t know why everyone freaks out about stuff like that. Of course, people are going to be nervous, but come on!
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You’re doing just fine, Matt. Really, you are. And I don’t just sugar coat things and you know that! I’m glad you’re expanding your ways in your attempts of forming an active in-person social life. 🙂 I’m also glad you’re not putting all of your eggs in one basket. You make a great student, Matt! Maybe I should take our interactions and make a “How to” book. 🙂
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Also, I didn’t know you were awake so late last night, or I would’ve called when I got back from dinner. When I left to get ready for my “ten minutes” I was just planning to do my hair and make up. I ended up taking a shower and blah blah blah. Took me about an hour. Whoops! Anyways, I did get home at 9:30 but was pretty sure you’d be sleeping. I guess I’ll talk to you tonight. 🙂
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Finally, I think it’s definitely reasonable that people online have trust issues especially if they’ve been trying to meet okcupid people for awhile. Chances are that they’ve had bad experiences. Just take it at whatever pace they want to go, and in the meantime, like you said, you’ll go about meeting people in your classes. Every time you start to feel discouraged, read that entry about the most
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social day of your life. That should inspire you again. You did great that day, Matt! And truly, being a social butterfly and all, you really only want a few days of the week to be like that at the maximum. I’d say you’re doing pretty good if you have two social outings/events a week. I’d also try to set up more stuff on the weekends rather than during the week. Try to take the interaction outside
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of school. Also, I had some pictures taken in November that I finally got back, so remember to hand those out to your hot accounting friends. Haha, just kidding. Um, sort of. 😛
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I’d rather hear about the guy than talk about myself at that stage. I think we need to find you some other ladies.
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You have such supportive reader friends, yay. But seriously. I agree–can’t happen over night and you really are doing well. Not just at least you’re trying. At most you are trying. Like, that is HUGE.
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Hi there. As someone whose ability to walk into walls accidentally far exceeds her abilities to have successful, real life social interactions I have found the best thing is to mentally gear yourself into thinking that everything is a “we’re just friends” thing. Don’t call them dates, because that creates (however slight) expectations (& also disappointments). Psychological pressure sucks. Avoid!
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Uh, since when do girls expect sex after date three?? I always thought that we preferred to wait until much later for sex. I’m gonna attribute this misinformation to the fact that you’re a virgin. ~I’ll be
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I’m sorry, Matt. I’ve been “busy” lately (drinking with my brother, playing the Sims, going to bed early, dropping out of school, failing at life, hearing things that aren’t there) and my head is kind of weird. Hey, you could call me, you know! If you want to talk to me so bad! xoxox
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Look who’s not on now! I’ve been on all day and I haven’t even seen you away… or I’m sorry, “Elsewhere.”
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P.S. I like the changes in your diary. It’s cute. And I love that you’re going to try Swing Dancing. If I was there, I’d try it with you. You can’t be as bad as you think. I’ve seen videos of you dancing. Haha. 🙂
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You should try calling me at home (517-569-2039) if you feel phony (haha, get it?) before 10 o’clock. My cell ran out of minutes again because I have so many one minute conversations…
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PS: So what’s going on with Heather lately?
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Yes. Low self-esteem is a dream.
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