Cancellation, Planning, and Paranoia

It turns out the swing dancing lessons don’t start for another three weeks (despite the advertisement I read simply saying “Every Monday!”), so the plans are off for that for now. I was completely hyped for it too. Hopefully I don’t talk myself out of it before the 28th comes around.

Meanwhile, things are still progressing along with Robin, as we are planning to meet sooner than later. Which is terrifically exciting. On the downside, I am noticing that she seems a little cold and distant online, but that’s exactly the sort of thing that’s hard to judge in online interaction, so I’m going to reserve judgment until we actually meet. There’s no reason not to.

But, ok, there is a bit of a very weird and mildly scary sidebar to the Robin story: one of my diary readers and best online friends, Kate, knows who Robin is. I’m going to try to take this slowly.

Kate, my online friend, lives in Arizona and met me completely randomly, through Open Diary. Freakishly enough, after we met she happened to get back together with her ex-boyfriend who goes to UGA (and, no, it wasn’t an online thing, her boyfriend transferred from Arizona State). So, randomly, I ended up going to school with the guy who she was dating, from across the country. They’ve sense broken up, but that’s beside the point. The point is that Robin happens to be an ex-girlfriend of Kate’s (now-ex) boyfriend. I hope that made sense.

I know some of you might point out that Kate could just be a crazy reader who only thinks it’s the same girl, but no – when I told Kate Robin’s name, Kate proceeded to describe Robin to me in detail, complete with her myspace name. So, yeah, it’s the same girl and it’s a small world and it makes me feel rather weird. It’s actually made me really self-conscious about my diary, as I always have considered the possibility of someone I actually know running across it to be completely miniscule, but, well, this shows that random shit like that really could happen. I’ve toyed with making the diary favorites only but I really don’t want to do that, so I think I am just going to be a bit more private about things. I’m not going to go to the trouble to edit or hide old entries, but I think in the future I might start calling people I meet by something other than their real name. And not mention the city I’m located in in every bloody entry. And to feel really comfortable, I should probably change my name too. Otherwise I’m going to have to make the diary favorites only or I won’t feel comfortable writing here anymore.

So. Any recommendations for the name change?

mairead

January 7, 2008

Dude. That was like in Ferris Bueller. I’m a GIRL and that third paragraph completely loses me. Hold on. Gathering some oxygen and water for my brain.

(“Um, he’s sick. My best friend’s sister’s boyfriend’s brother’s girlfriend heard from this guy who knows this kid who’s going with the girl who saw Ferris pass out at 31 Flavors last night. I guess it’s pretty serious.”)

OK. I took it slowly. It makes sense. But um yes small world. UNLESS KATE DONE IT! With the candle stick. p.s. ARE YOU SITECOUNTING?!

Yours For Now...

Something other than real names, huh? So like, Robin would be oh….Internet Girl? What if that turns readers off from your diary? What if they judge you based on that? What if it nearly discourages them entirely from reading?? I’m teasing. : ) ~I’ll be

Hey, do you think you could not mention all of this TO Robin? I think it’d just prevent a LOT of drama, don’t you? As for a name change, I think you should go with Kate’s Man. 🙂 HAHAHAHHAHA or Kate’s Future Hubby. 😉

the.story.of.a.girl.

Trust me, when I first got my diary, nearly a year ago, the thought that someone might find it never crossed my mind. But someone did, and sent the link around to people I know. Luckily, I changed my privacy settings before many people could see it. Still, the damage was done. It’s like one of those teen pregnancy adds. “You never think it can happen to you, but it can.” Goodluck.

i dont think you should change anything. so what if people see it? if they dont want your honesty they shouldnt be in your life.

Narciso

open diary users only, maybe?

Aberration.

xo,

ryn: I understand. I didn’t look at it that way.

catch the sparks

If you talk yourself out of the dancing, we’ll talk you right back into it. Have no fear. Kate knowing Robin is freaky. That’s… dude. Freaky. Also, your new diary title makes me laugh. Goodbye, Athens. Hello, possession.

January 8, 2008

Haha, oh, I didn’t notice your title change. : ) Is it weird that I’m not at all freaked out by it? ~I’ll be

Matt, I think you are being overly paranoid. OH! Nice diary title. How weird. You should have called it…something with my name in it. Lol.

i completely understand the paranoia thing. i am the most paranoid person you could ever meet, hands down. roommates, huh? where would i have to live?

only if i get to wear an apron.

Yesterdays_Girl

Haha, I’ve missed the past few entries, so I was a little surprised when you mentioned you were going line dancing? You’re going line dancing? With who?

IceGurlie

Name change idea gets a thumbs down from me. Wow, talk about six degrees of separation. That’s pretty funny. But it would be more interesting for me to know why Robin and Kate’s ex broke up.

IceGurlie, they broke up because she’s bad in bed and had like no emotion. Also, my ex is a jerk and dumps girls because he’s “not a relationship guy”. I’m done. Really. LOL, I’m in a bad mood today. SHUT UP. Matt, please delete this after icegurlie reads it so that my stupid ex doesn’t see it by mistake if he finds your diary and all that. GOD.

LOL never mind I guess I made it private. Whoops. Matt, I’m all over the place today. In a very bad mood. Not sure what’s wrong with me. Anyways, I wish you weren’t in class so I can just cry to you because that’s better than crying at work in the back hoping no one can hear or see me. I’m so lame. Oh you’re probably wondering why I’m in a bad mood. FIRST of all, 4 people called me last night

after I had gone to bed. I am so PISSED off because it kept waking me up. One of them called after midnight and I haven’t talked to him in TWO YEARS. Then because of all of that, I couldn’t get out of bed this morning on time to go to the gym when I really wanted to. THEN to make matters worse, my dumbass jerk exboyfriend Lewis calls me and was like “why didn’t you sleep” so I said how that guy

called me and Lewis starts lecturing me on how I need to learn how to reject people. I really wanted to be like, “Yeah, like how you reject me?” JERK JERK JERK JERK. UGHHHHH. Then my employee starts complaining because I’m asking her to do her job and she doesn’t want to. She goes out and does it for 15 minutes, comes back and asks me if she can wait until the other girl comes and i’m like no,

I really need you to go. I’m getting in trouble for my employees not doing their jobs. So she goes out, and I had to bargain with her. DAMMIT I’m the boss! I shouldn’t have to bargain! They should be doing what I tell them to! I just struggle with her because she’s twice my age and it’s hard for me to boss people around who are that much older than me. Plus she makes me feel uncomfortable and now

I need to let her go. 🙁 I’m just entirely upset about this whole thing. This whole day. All of last night. This morning. Everything. I’m cranky for lack of sleep. I’m stressed out because of my job. I’m upset because of the aforementioned. I just want to scream. And cry. Ugh.