3 Years

So, I’ve been at OD for roughly 3 years now (and plan to be here until it inevitably shuts down), which strikes me as comical since I started it completely randomly when Kyle and I were bored in my dorm room during my freshman year. Since then, I’ve managed to meet 3 people from the site, oh, and have a year long relationship with one of them from across the country. I don’t know, it’s just weird. The randomness of life is baffling sometimes.

I’m becoming increasingly and increasingly worried about next year and moving to Athens for grad school where I’ll probably be living alone. Understand, I’ve lived alone before and I haven’t functioned entirely well when I have (though I did write in this diary a lot more). Granted, the rather blatantly obvious soloution to this is to get a roommate, but it sorta defeats the purpose as living with a random college student will more than likely amount to me still feeling alone, only with the added annoyance of not being able to watch what I want on television. So, that’s really no good either.

I’ve recently been smothered by these fears that I’m going to end up spending my life alone. Now, granted, I can quite easily (and probably will) surround myself with people, but it’s more difficult to find people who are actually meaningful to me, people who I share something with. Which, granted, I’m sure there’s plenty of such people out there, but I have to bloody find them, don’t I? I find my desire for human companionship to be outright annoying sometimes.

Now, think, it’s been 3 years, and this is still as close to a serious entry as you get from me. Makes you wonder what the point is, no?

october rain

There’s a point. I like you, Matty! ^_^

shamb*ala

there have been many times that i have thought the same. “this relationship will be my last” … and then it just ends and i feel like I am over … i’ll be alone forever. But then you realize that it’s just that the “it” hasn’t happened yet. and my fave quote from george bernard shaw: “love is a grosse exageration of the difference between one person … and everybody else.” it’l be ok.

Miss Britt

Oh it is baffling how random life is. Things happen when you least expect them to. And I didn’t realize you were moving to Greece…

softspot69

October 19, 2006

Good luck in athens. And when you are least expecting it you will meet someone. You won’t be alone.

kaia

And, Greece! Wow! That’s so exciting. Don’t give up hope yet; there is much more out there for you to explore and discover. They say that meeting someone happens when you least expect it; you just have to be open to it. There are so many factors that come into play with dating and meeting the right person; it’s amazing that it even happens at all.

Sleeping on it

Isn’t Athens in Georgia? I know there is one in Greece but I just assumed it was the one in GA. Anyway, I was scared to live in a new town, start a new college, begin a new job, and no NOBODY. I love it! I have been here since the August and I am amazingly happy. I am usually much more emotional so this is a nice change.You’ll do great and it’d be nice to have more entries to read.

A favorite of mine celebrated his 3 years OD anniversary today as well… You’re 21, you will have man years of many people in your life. Trust me.

And yeah, Greece or Georgia? Been to Athens Greece numerous times, I would love to study there – in younger days

I told you there would be confusion about Athens Mat!

Awww…I know what you mean. It’s so hard to find people that are passionate about the same things that you are. Cuz life is really a lot more fun if you share it with someone else. Keep your eyes open and hopefully you’ll find people that will mean something to you. That’s what I’m doing 🙂

JenEyre

I started a diary out of boredom as well… I agree with you on finding people who are meaningful…It’s very difficult…Connecting with people anymore is a massive puzzle to me…If you think about it this is a lot more serious of an entry than most people…Do a random entry check and you’ll find lots of “lol that was gret 2day in class when I hit that kid with a book!”

Wow, I feel like such an idiot.

RYN: Interesting interests, thanks. Butt, huh? I promise you, my butt is a bit bigger!

Nick

October 20, 2006

It’s depressingly tough to make friends out of college, and even tougher to make quality ones, simply because your openings leave you a smaller pool to pull from. I’ve been here over 6 years I think, and I have 1/10th of your entries. Though in all fairness, I think I’ve been through three diary deletes. No worries there though.

you could always come to florida and be near me. 🙂 i’ll keep you company. cause i love my matty.

oh my god. the amount of people that thought you were moving to greece … i can’t breathe from the laughter…..

michael.

October 22, 2006

I don’t like admitting how long I’ve been on OD for, OR everything that’s happened since I started…hah. In my vast experience of having loads of mates, I could advise you to – well maybe not. Get a job in a pub? The drama’s barely worth the mates anyway, who are rarely more than acquaintances. Why can’t America think up their own names for cities?

Athens? You’re going to UGA for grad school? When did this happen? -K

heatherette

October 24, 2006

Thank you.

October 25, 2006

Michael is an ass.

October 26, 2006

Yeah, I know, you’re right.