What is going on here??

So I’ve been not feeling that great these past couple days. I’ve been trying to do anything and everything to get my mind off of things. It’s been a little rough, but today I somewhat feel better.

 
I found out on Sunday that my friend’s sister committed suicide. This is the second suicide in my town…of people my age…of people that I know in two months.
 
The first one was while I was in Miami. My friend called me early in the morning. I had woken up before everyone else and walked to a nearby Starbucks. My friend told me that this person had committed suicide. I was in shock and then sad and I wanted to go to the wake and funeral but I wasn’t even home so I couldn’t go. This was in July.
 
On Saturday I went to another dance teacher’s husband’s welcome home party (he is in the military and just got home from tour.) After leaving the party, my boss and I were talking on the way home about my friend (C) who killed himself in July. 
 
That night, (K) killed herself. She was my friend’s sister, however, because we are all the same age I would hang out with her as well. I didn’t find out about anything until Sunday night. I was shocked again and then yesterday turned into sadness and as I was running errands after work I couldn’t stop crying. I just decided to go home because I wasn’t okay. I thought about C and K and thought about my dad. I haven’t cried like this in a while and all these memories of those three people were flooding my head. I feel better now. I wrote a card to my friend’s family but I haven’t sent it yet. This Sunday I am going to K’s Celebration of Life party. They will not be having a wake or funeral…
 
So sad…I feel so sad for my friend and his family…I just feel uneasy.