3 1/2 & Counting…

The end is near…
Just can’t let go…
Not that there is a choice really…I write this last entry, one that I’m not saving, at it will be lost to time and space, and whatever else…

I feel…Pain & Numb at the same time. Add to it being sick, which so doesn’t help.

I held out hope, for just one note…A specific note, from a specific person. But…*sigh* Hope will fade along with the last minutes.
If the note comes, it’ll be at 11:59, and I’ll never see it.
I don’t expect to be awake at midnight…My head aches…My heart aches…My body aches…
I have a cough…I’m sick sick…At least I don’t think it’s the plague.

Oh yeah…My mentor teacher inquired if I had enough credits to sub…I think she wants me in there if she ends up having her baby before the school year is over.

I pretty much have no voice…The cough has stolen it.

So…

Nell…Wherever you are…I MISS you greatly.
I don’t know what became of you…I can only hope that you are doing well somewhere…And maybe, perhaps, on occasion, you think of us.
I hope that whenever you see a penguin, you think of a purple haired Slytherin girl, and know, she misses her Uncle Remus.

This…Breaks my heart…This end to so much…

If not for Open Diary, I would not be who I am today…I would not have the friends I have, who have encouraged me, and comforted me, through oh so much.

I’ll check in the morning, if I don’t make tonight, I know I will…Holding out some kind of misguided hope…Or, perhaps, to see the carnage…Accidents and all you know.

Thank you Jack, whereever you are, for bringning me here.
Thank you Nell, for reading my story, and running with it… *clutches "the sign" to chest desperately* & I will climb the wall again…At least I hope to.
Thank you Dobby…For being my first RPG noter on here, and bringing me & Raven into a wonderful world, full of wonderful people.
Thank you Raya…For becoming my sister…Even if it started with Raven getting the crap beaten out of her by the evil "Riddle Twins."  
Thank you EVERYONE from the RPG…The insanity of the Perry family (Miriam/Katherine & Nina/Nicola) & Azi thanks you too, I’m sure.

I left one last note using Raven’s diary…I left it on Remus’s diary. It just seemed fitting.

Thank you, Non-RPG people…Who have become my friends…Tho I think most of you knew me as Raven first.

I saved a few ‘front pages’…

I saved 10 (11) RPG diaries…& 5 non-RPG diaries…2 of the rpg ones being Remus’s & Remus’s w/notes (I had to go back and keep the notes too…I couldn’t let go…Even if that meant copy & pasting every entry for a second time).
2 non-RPG’s were copy & paste as well…Nell’s & the Tea Witch’s…

My head hurts too much…So…This, I guess, is…Good-Bye.