The Abyss…

I’m feeling pretty much gutted…It was bad enough having to say good-bye to Wasil Saturday morning…Add to it the Critters leaving Sunday, knowing they were heading into misery…*sigh*

I didn’t want to stir this morning…I just wanted to stay curled up.

The visit was pretty good…No real majorly tense moments, a bump here or there…But survivable.
Sunday night, Monday, Tuesday we just hung out here.
Mum took the Critters to see her mother Monday, so we had that time to ourselves.
I had school Tuesday, which sucked having to go (tho the experiment we did was kind of interesting).
Wednesday Wasil & I met up with a guy we went to school with & his girlfriend. Went out to dinner…Which wasn’t too bad. Then Wasil & I went to the movies. [We seen Despicable Me 2.]
Thursday was the 4th of July…& although I had pictured & wanted it to go differently…It wasn’t too bad, I suppose. I usually spend the day with Mum & the Critters, but with Wasil here, we couldn’t go do the wandering around Boyne thing (as he can’t walk too much without a lot of pain…Which sucks beyond sucking…But you learn to deal). & the night before Jeff (they guy from school) mentioned they were going to be out to Whiting’s Park, & I knew some of Mum’s friends were suppose to be out there too, so I thought maybe that would work, we could all be there, somehow. Still didn’t work quite right…Wasil & I left before Mum & the Critters…& I suppose it was an okay time, I didn’t really feel involved, just kind of there…But I’m use to that. Mum & the Critters went in and wandered Boyne a bit, then came out to the park. Her friend wasn’t there yet, so she brought the Critters down to the beach area so they could go swimming…I went down & watched them play in the water a bit. Then Mum got a text saying her friend was back to their camp site, so we got the Critters out and she went that way, and we decided to meet up at Glen’s in Boyne around 9:30 to go to the fireworks. Wasil & I hung out a bit longer…We left earlier than need be, Mum text me when we were on our way and told me they were already @ Glen’s & I told her we were already on our way. Got parked & gathered stuff up and headed off to the park. Found what I thought should have been a pretty good spot and sat there for an hour or so…When the fireworks started, decided it wasn’t quite as good of a spot as it should have been (they shifted where they shoot them off at)…But it wasn’t too far from a spot that was still clear of bodies & was fairly decent.
I had always imagined watching fireworks with my heart would be having his arms wrapped around me as we looked up at the sky…Not so much. Wasil was laying down, head propped up on a blanket, I guess it was what he needed for his back, and I rested a hand on him. Sonja & Harley used me as a pillow, which was nice…Mum was just kind of sitting there watching the fireworks…I hope she felt included. Wasil was surprised by how good the fireworks were…So I guess that is a plus, he liked them.
Friday we got B.C.P. Them Mum took the Critters to the beach, so we had some more time to ourselves.
Saturday morning came and Wasil got ready to go, and was gone again.
Sunday, knowing the Critters had to leave, Mum & I took them to get ice cream and wander around ‘Ice Cream Town’ as Sonja has renamed Bellaire. *laughs*
We sat around a little park eating our ice cream for a bit, then wandered some of the trails that are there before we headed back to the car.

*sigh* My poor Critters…My heart is crushed. They hate going to their father’s…& honestly, I’m feeling defeated. Michigan doesn’t have an age that frees them, aside from 18.
Sonja had been invited to a bonfire last night, but she couldn’t go, because she had to go to the Idiot’s house. She texts me telling me she wants to come home, and that they got there & the idiot left first thing, his wife came out and started yelling at them. Harley called me later, crying, wanting to come home, saying that there were there all alone and didn’t have anything to eat. *sigh*
Friend of the Court is of no help…Child Protective Services is of no help…Telling him anything, including that the Critters don’t want to be there is of no help…
I get to get them early this week, which is the one thing I’m holding on to,and trying to tell them to hold on to too…I get to get them at noon on Saturday…Then Sunday Sonja goes to camp.
I dread the week she is gone and Harley has to go to the idiot’s house…He won’t have her to look out for him…He won’t have a way to get a hold of me (as he uses Sonja’s phone)…It’s like a weight upon my heart, just the thought makes it hard to breathe…& I’m just feeling completely helpless…*sigh*

It was storming when I woke up…& I couldn’t even enjoy it.
Was hoping that the Critters got to go inside last night. [Yeah, another thing…When the Idiot picked them up he told them they got to sleep in the tent this week…Like it was a treat…Sonja said she didn’t want to, but was then told she had to…In addition, the other girls are NOT going to be sleeping in the tent. So yeah…So fair there. *rolls eyes* Gods, I just wish he would leave my babies alone. *sigh*]

So…I have homework to do…No class this week, but more homework for the two days that class would have been…
I need to get a (some) paper(s) filled out by Mrs. Gooding…But she hasn’t replied to the message I sent…I need it for the College of Ed stuff…I need her to at least fill out the verification form for my 25 hours of working with small children…If she doesn’t want to fill out the recomendation, that’s fine…I’ll find someone, somewhere, somehow…But not hearing back from her, I don’t know. & I know it’s possible she didn’t get it, it is Facebook after all, and I know messages don’t always show up properly. I don’t know. Blah. *sigh* I have until mid-September if I HAVE to…Tho I would rather get everything done as soon as possible.

This is probably more than enough for the moment…