Countdown Survey…

10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people
1. We haven’t even known each other a decade, but it seems like we’ve known each other forever. I know, no matter what you’ll be there for me, and you somehow manage to keep me in what resembles sanity, at least as far as I’m concerned. You are so very important to me, and I know I’m not always good at showing it, but I hope you’ll always know. *hugs*

2. You ‘trained’ me, ‘taught’ me, but that doesn’t change the fact that you are a manipulative, egocentric, self-centered prat. You lied to me, twisted the truth to suit your own needs, and used me for your own selfish purposes. You once had this ‘hold’ over me, but I’ve broken free and can see you for who and what you really are now. And it seems, Karma is finally catching up to you.

3. I wish you weren’t gone as much as you are. I miss having you be there, and knowing that you’d be there when I needed you. Now I’m left wondering that if I had an actual need, would I be able to get a hold of you, would you be able to come and take care of it? I don’t think you realize how much I still rely on you, perhaps I shouldn’t, but that is the way things are.

4. You are a major annoyance. You show up uninvited, stay for longer than you say you intend to, impose yourself and your followers upon the household. You are inconsiderate of my space, bringing so much stuff in with you that I can’t even walk through my living room without tripping over something of yours. You think you know everything, about everything, and offer up said knowledge without thinking for an instance that maybe those around you don’t want to hear everything you think you know about every subject under the sun. You are an expert at one thing…Over staying your welcome. So do me a favor…Get out!

5. I can’t even begin to explain what you do to me. You make me feel so many feelings at once, which leads me to feeling quite powerless when it comes to you. My heart aches when we are apart, which is way too much for my liking. But I know, despite my less than stellar past, that I am only for you, and no one else. I try to do whatever it is you wish of me, and I’m sorry when I can’t seem to do it without trouble. I’m still dealing with things from the past, but you’ve been quite patient with me considering. I’ll happily do most anything of you ask for me…I’ve grown and become more ‘adventurous’ under your care. I don’t know what I would do if something ever went wrong…I don’t ever want to be without you in my life again.

6. Sometimes you drive me utterly crazy and I don’t know what to do with you. You make me question if I’m capable of giving you what you need to be successful in life. But I love you dearly and I will continue to do my best to make your life the best possible life it can me. I know you have so much potential, I just don’t want it to get lost because of you not being able to control how you act at time. I only want the best for you.

7. Sometimes I forget that you are as young as you are. You seem so mature and grown-up, which is confusing to me, I suppose, since I’m so much the opposite. Yet, I know we are so much alike, and that is why when you were even younger, I wondered if we’d ever get along. I think, in the ways of being ’out there’ you’ve even surpassed me, which is kind of intimidating, yet something I am quite proud of as well. You know who you are, and despite others trying to tell you otherwise, you aren’t about to let them dictate who you are. You are unique & creative & I love you dearly.

8. We were once best friends, yet even then there was something telling me that you weren’t exactly the friend you were suppose to be. & when I caught you out back my house, with my ex (whom you knew bloody well I still had feelings for), I was more than hurt. I thought you were better than that…But from what I’ve learned since…Maybe I should of just let him use & toss you away like he did everybody else.

9. I wish I knew where you were, and had a way to get a hold of you. I think about you often, and it honestly hurts that I can’t reconnect with you. You probably hold the spot of 2nd best friend in my heart, and it leaves a hole there, not knowing if you even are anymore.

10. You are a total and complete idiot. If you had half a brain, or could think for yourself, you would take the time to look and see what you are doing to your children. They love you, yes, but they don’t like you…In fact at times they hate you (Yes, it IS possible to do both at the same time.)…If you would consider for once their feelings, thoughts and opinions, maybe they would, for once, think of you something other than a complete moron. Until you wake up and do that…You risk losing them, because one of these days they will be able to tell you freely to bugger off, and will do so gladly, and you will end up losing them forever.

9 things about yourself
1. I am Creative.
2. I am Imaginative.
3. I am Unique.
4. I am a Writer.
5. I am a Mother.
6. I am a Student.
7. I am a Chameleon.
8. I am Pagan.
9. I am Me. ß Ha! So there. 😛

8 ways to win my heart
1. Make me smile.
2. Make me laugh.
3. Tell me the truth.
4. Accept me for who I am.
5. Don’t try to change me.
6. Listen to me.
7. Be there for me.
8. Love me.

7 things that cross my mind a lot
1. Wasil {Seriously, who did not see this coming?}
2. School…Kind of hard to escape it.
3. Writing…RPG & just writing in general.
4. My Critters…As if they would let me get away without thinking of them.
5. The future…It’s inescapable after all…Always waiting around the next corner to jump on you, and pummel you into submission.
6. Money…It’s evil…But it’s a necessity, so it’s hard not to think about it on occasion.
7. Food! Food is good…I like food…Regardless of what some people may think when they look at me. *glares @ people*

6 things i want to do before i die
1. Write/Publish/Sell a short story/novella/novel. [All 3 of the first to at least one of the last.]
2. Finish my degree. [I’m hoping it doesn’t actually kill me in the process.]
3. Visit England.
4. Visit Switzerland…Vila Diodati to be more precise.
5. Learn Italian…& I suppose go to Italy, so learning will have a use.
6. Visit Louisiana…I want to see my Sissy in her ‘natural environment’. *giggles*

5 people who mean a lot to you
1. My Mum
2. Sonja
3. Harley
4. Raya
5. Wasil

4 things you can see right now
1. Ragnar

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2. Sirius Black wanted poster.
3. Picture of me dresses as L.
4. A chocolate Easter bunny, known as ‘The Professor’.

3 bands you listen to often
1. Ludo
2. Green Day
3. Offspring

2 things you do before bed
1. Take out my contacts.
2. Text Wasil good-night.

1 confession
1. I can sometimes be quite critical of others…Shame on me.