Clarification…

I didn’t mean that Mum didn’t want to be here with us. What was meant by what I said was she doesn’t want to have to deal with any of the possible arguments and the moments when Harley has one of his meltdowns, blah, blah, blah. Seriously, I don’t want to have to be here and deal with them all the time either, but I am, and I do. It just irritates the hell out of me that she will start to mutter things like “I’m here why?”, or “I stayed home for this?”, or “I have other places I could be.”

The majority of the problem, I believes, lies with the ‘thing’ that she is spending so much of her time with. He has his own bloody issues, and has these mood swings, that of course, since she has to deal with it, effects her as well. Unfortunately, it has to come back and effect us as well.

What annoys me the most is I’ve ‘warned’ her, there is something ‘not right’…But she dismisses it. Which wouldn’t bother me as much, if it wasn’t for the fact that I DO KNOW! I don’t know how, or why, or what…But I do know I know. It’s not the first time I’ve had ‘feelings’ like this, and they have always been right, thus far. [Tho admittedly, it only works for others, not for myself.] And it’s not like I haven’t been right when it comes to someone and her before. So yeah…The whole thing annoys me more so than it probably would under normal circumstances.

Another thing, which is my own issue, I know…I remember how she use to be…A long time ago now. And yeah, I miss the way she was.
It had always been me and her, and it worked. She was always there for me, I didn’t have to worry about being left alone when I needed someone to be there, I knew she’d be there.

Then came an evil creature into our lives…I knew there was something wrong with him, I could sense it, like I said…
Anyway…He was abusive and a cretin. It’s understandable that prolonged exposure to such would change a person…Her patience became shorter, her temper quicker, when before she had all the patience in the world, I wouldn’t of thought her capable of a temper.

Anyway…I hope that makes a bit more sense.

I need to write! I’ve got the ball part of Hex’s entry written, there is mayhem to come which I need to write yet.

I didn’t get to sleep in, but I don’t mind in the long run…As it gave me a chance to give my Critters a proper good-bye. Sonja called this morning to tell me she needed her book for English class, which she had left here…So I had to take it in to her. Got to see Harley and her both, and give them tight hugs, and kisses. [I probably have the only 12 year old on the planet who doesn’t tell me to stop when I kiss her cheek when telling her good-bye when she’s at school. *smiles* At least under the circumstances that she knows she’s going to the Idiots for the week-end. She wants so badly to come home, where she belongs…*sigh*]