dimanche, cinq septembre

I know I shouldn’t doubt, but me being me, sometimes I can’t help but have at least a little bit creeping around inside my head. [Seriously, you would think with everything else in there there wouldn’t be room for other things.] I know part of it is because I haven’t had a marvelous track record when it comes to relationships, even the ones I thought were going good seemed to have more than it’s fair share of issues. *shrugs* Secondly, you always hear people saying ‘long distance relationships don’t work’…I know there are others that will tell you different, but they don’t seem to make as big of a statement, or something. Third…Um sure there was one, though I can’t quite recall what it is at the moment.

ANYWAY…Despite no change, just my own insecurities and worry, that little annoying voice, that seems to only have the goal to keep me feeling insecure and anxious, whispers stupid things inside my brain to make me worry, make me wonder, etc. etc.
BUT…There are small, to most I’m sure seemingly inconsequential things, that put worries to rest and strengthen my beliefs in what is good.
On pretty much a daily basis I send Wasil a text in the mornings, at least sometime before noon anyway. More than a few times of late he’s been late with a reply, but sometimes he’s busy, or doesn’t hear it when it goes off. He does reply when he realizes it’s there. I’ve considered a couple times on days when it’s been more than a couple hours between of skipping the text and seeing if he noticed. I decided against doing any such thing…Well I did kind of forget to text him this morning. [I was mostly working on my French.] A little after 12:30 my phone goes off…& I remember I hadn’t sent Wasil his text yet. Well, it was him, asking where his daily text was at. I had to locate my phone, as I forgot to take it out of my purse last night, and while I was in the process of responding to the text, my phone rings (mind you, this was about 3 minutes from the time it had gone off initially). It was Wasil wondering where I was at. *smiles* It was a brief conversation. Pretty much me telling him I was working on my French, and the fact that it’s easier for me to learn with the program I have on my computer that repeats everything, then makes me repeat it, and so on and so forth…& him telling me he was in the middle of viciously rearranging the environment in his reef tank again. *laughs* [Seriously, that poor tank. Tho he had a legitimate reason this time, not just not happy with the aesthetics.] There was also the fact that the program I have doesn’t have lists for everything that I need…[Currently I am in need of the months and more numbers than what it has to offer.]…Wasil said he would look later for a torrent for Rosetta Stone for French for me. *smiles* Hopefully he can find one, and it’s as helpful as the program I have is for what little it has on it. I am remembering somethings…Just need a bit more help [Doesn’t help that I know I’m facing a quiz Tuesday over the first two lessons].

Anyway…Aside from that…I have my Harley boy here with me. *smiles* Not sure how much longer, but I’m not going to complain.
I had set it up with the Idiot that he could have them Friday 6:00 PM- Monday 6:00 PM, then I could have them the entire first week of school, that way they wouldn’t have to split the first week back when they are trying to get settled back into a routine.
Sonja went with their Aunt Katie Friday about 4:00, as they had Harley at some point while Sonja was at camp, so they wanted some time with her before school started. Idiot picked Harley up here at about 7:30 Friday.  About 4:30 or so Saturday afternoon I got a phone call from the Idiot asking if I was going to be home…He said there was a chance he might get called out to work and wanted to know if I was going to be home & willing to watch Harley. DUH! He wasn’t sure at that point if he was going to get called out or not…About quarter after 7 he calls to say that he did get called in (pretty much after I’d given up)…So about 7:30 Saturday I had my little boy back where he belongs (I can tell you, he was/is a very happy boy currently). & I still have him…Haven’t heard from the Idiot at all since he dropped him off…He said the team they were going out to replace had been working something like 17 hours…Don’t know if they’ll be working him that long or not…But it’s already nearly 3:00 PM now.
 

Now…I should try to figure out what I’m suppose to be doing for Children’s Lit…I think I just hate online classes…I know I still need to find some more books…Tho I’m not sure where I’m going to find the majority of them in person. The library is suppose to have some…But I really have the desire to go there…& I know I can’t bloody well afford to go and buy them all. Blah…I’ll figure out something. I need to read through the instructions more closely…I think it’s mostly like writing book reviews. *shrugs* 

Okay…I think I am off…Boy is wanting some oatmeal…