School…Sonja hair (w/pics)…WR3 stuffs…

Wrote a few days ago, just didn’t managed to get it posted (to be followed by newer stuff):

HG&D: Wrote my explanation for what I had wanted to write for advocacy thing in Unit 2…Hopefully good enough to get partial credit…& FINALLY e-mailed it and my Observation thing to the teacher (& right afterwards found where I was suppose to upload the Observation thing hiding in the next Unit section). Hopefully it does something to make my grade a happy thing.

Took a closer look at my Oceanography grades & realized I’m actually doing better than I thought I was. Yeah, my one quiz was only 60% and my Lab exam was like 68%…But most of my work sheets & a good portion of my labs are 100%, otherwise they are in the 80’s & 90’s…So I suppose it’s just me being my usual paranoid self over things.

Algebra…Yeah, got to do the homework problems sometime soon so I don’t have to worry about them over Spring Break.

& it still throws me off that I only have 3 classes to write about instead of 4.

I really need to get into the advisors after Spring Break and figure out what I have to do next semester…Ug…*shakes head* I don’t know if I have to transfer, or can take some classes at NMC, or will have to do both & drive between the two (which are pretty much on opposite ends of T.C.).

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It’s Wednesday already…Wow…I still have some homework I need to get done before heading back to school next week. Thing is, part of it is algebraic problems for Oceanography, and I’m not sure what the formula I’m suppose to be using is. *sighs* *shakes head*

Monday I felt so blah pretty much all day long. That whole hollow empty feeling…What really sucks is the not knowing why. It was just there. & in a rarity…There was not one text, in or out, on my phone. O.o

Felt pretty much back to ‘normal’ yesterday, but later on kind of that empty feeling again…At least not as bad as Monday though. I’m feeling fairly okay right now, just hoping ick feeling stays away.

Sonja got her hair cut yesterday…*will attempt to insert pictures* There were taking on my cell phone, so hopefully they turned out good enoughs.

Isn’t she just of the adorablenesses…She looks extra cuteness with her ears on now too, but I don’t have a picture of that yet.

I still haven’t gotten pictures of my robes yet…I will do that, eventually. If I do it myself I need to use Sonja’s camera…If I have Mum take them, I have to manage to have her do that and she can take them on her camera, which have the pictures of Appa’s busted nose on it too.

Last night’s convo with Wasil started with him asking where his daily text was…I asked “You have a daily text?” To which he replied: “from u  pretty much  yep”
Then I informed him I didn’t text him yesterday either, which is followed by: “oh yr right u didnt   what the   2 days and no text   whats goin on?  did i upset u insome way”
Told him no…Cuz he hasn’t…I think the night befores had been due to the ick feeling…I worry about being a pest, about coming off as needy, or clingy, or possessive…I don’t know what we are, and I’m not sure what I can and can not do…If that makes any sense. *sigh*

Truth of the matter…I love him…But the thought of telling him…It scares the hell out of me.
1.) When he first decided I was ‘falling’ for him, he asked how I could have such deep feelings so quickly. Honestly, I got defensive, though perhaps passively so. Told him I didn’t name the feelings I had, or may have, or something. & Pretty much denied I was ‘falling’ for him…Though I knew full well I was, or already had.
2.) I don’t know how he feels…I can guess, but I don’t know for sure. I can hope…But it’s always followed with the thought I could be wrong, that I don’t know…I won’t know till he tells me, because I’m not a mind reader. (Wouldn’t it be nice if I were?) & I’m afraid to ask…Afraid to hear the truth, in case it’s not what I want to hear. I don’t ask because he’s told me he doesn’t lie…& the truth scares me…Or the possible truth.
3.) I’ve admitted now that I was ‘falling’ for him…He countered with saying he thinks I’d already fallen. So yeah…There he goes, he already knows, right? Falling/Fallen=Having Love, right? *sigh* I don’t know…Does he know? & if he does, he hasn’t said anything such in return…Am I suppose to guess…Just know? Just be happy with whatever? [Yes, I’m fully aware I should be posing these questions to him, not myself or the lot of you…But that goes back to the whole scared as all hell thing.]

I’m so confused…*pokes at self* When it comes to such things I still feel like a confused teen…Is there something wrong with my brain that it won’t do whatever growing it’s suppose to do? Not that I want to be grown-up like most ‘adults’…I don’t want to loose being young & trying to have fun & all that stuff…I don’t know…I don’t know anything. (Which isn’t entirely true, I know…There are some things, just not sure they are overly helpful…Since they don’t seem to make me think/feel any better.)

Major strangness of thoughts…I’ve been contemplating writing Bianca, and without naming names, tell her a bit of what’s going on and seeing what her thoughts are on the matters. As ridiculous as that has to sound. I mean, seriously? We haven’t had an actual convo in years…Let alone for me to pop up asking advice about guys…*headdesk* Seriously the only reason, and I know this, that I am even considering asking her about things of all people is because she is Wasil’s sister. But as I wouldn’t be mentioning his name…It really seems a mute point (as I’m 99.999999999999999999999999% certain he’s said nothing to her about any of this).

Blah…This is probably enough at this point…I’ve babbled enough.