Quick bit of babble
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STILL can’t copy & paste anything in here…Which is quite annoying.
Got replacement phone today…Have to wait for a new SIM card (3-5 days…7 at the most), so I can keep my phone number.
Have come to the conclusion the counselor at the school is pretty much worthless.
Sonja was crying this morning and not wanting to go to school, because she knew she had to go to her father’s afterward.
Sonja went to a dance last night…Least she had fun there…& even after there was some fun/insanity (like giving Duane a ride home O.o).
Me, myself…I’m not feeling overly cheery. Like I told James yesterday, I feel like giving up.
I’ve been spending too much time thinking about Todd again. [Figuring partly because it was around this time last year we got together.]
Aside from the ‘I know I shouldn’t do it’…I figured out what keeps me from ‘attacking’ James at anything that might seem like an opportunity. [I can’t stand the thought/chance/possibility of losing someone that means a great deal to me again. Did that once because I did something I shouldn’t have…I care too much about James to risk doing it again.]
But…I want someone to spend some time with…I know I don’t NEED someone to make me whole…I just want someone to hang out with.
I now know Gunnar’s birthday is Monday. I added him as a friend on MySpace. He replied by sending me a message to tell me that he turns 18 Monday. *shakes head* He is impossible.
*hugs you* lots of love to you.. wish we could all help you not send your kids to that asshat. MUAH
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What made you realize the school counselor is useless? Glad Sonja had fun at her dance 🙂 ummm… who’s this Gunnar character? I haven’t seen him mentioned much before… Sorry you feel down in the dumps – try not to think about NEEDING someone to make you feel whole – feel whole by yourself, be happy by yourself, then it won’t matter whether or not you find someone, but if you do, you’ll know you don’t NEED them, but you can stick to your standards and choose whether you WANT them in your life… that’s what I did – I took a break from guys, got myself sorted out, made a list of my standards, and was happy being by myself… and then found my fiance (or he found me… or we found each other… whatever)! He is by far the best boyfriend/fiance that I’ve ever had. But even if I hadn’t met him, I would be happy on my own, and I would have made sure my next guy stood up to my standards (and if not, then he would be tossed out the window, as I yell “NEXT!” *LOL*)
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