Suppose this could be NoJoMo #1

*is all stressed out*

Doesn’t help that a near full container of rubber cement just poured itself over half of my final black & white project for 2-D design…And in the process of trying to clean it up…I managed to smear part of the original picture. *sigh* I really, really, really hate this project. I already messed it up once, and had to go to T.C. to the college to get more paper to attempt it over…And the bloody thing is due Tuesday!

The main factor of my stress…Dan. He’s being his usual stupid arse self. Went I dropped the Critters off after Trick-or-Treating last night he tried to say that they didn’t get picked up till Monday, as they have Monday off of school, and he’s suppose to have the first choice of getting them on days off and half a days. I ended it with I would pick them up at 6 on Sunday, and drop them off on the way to school Monday. When he came to get their costumes today he was pushing for them to stay till Monday again. It just pisses me off that he’s such an arse! I told him I’d call at make sure Sonja was doing okay tomorrow, and decide from there.
Only reason I’m thinking of allowing such, because I want to get them early in two weeks. It’s my induction into the International Honour Society…And I would kind of like them there for it.

Anyway…*takes a breath* Let’s go back to the more pleasant parts of Halloween…

Morning was a bit rough…Stupid alarm clock unset itself…But luckily I woke up without it. It was a bit rough getting going…

I got my costume on and headed to the school…Goodies for the Critters classes, Buddy dressed as Crow…And a wrapped up Crow. Floated a bit between classes…Passing out goodies and what not.
Gods…I didn’t realize Kankuro had fan girls…I was attacked by a couple on the playground when I first got there! *laughs*

Sprung the Critters from school a bit early so we could get an early start…Although it didn’t quite go how it was suppose to. Got to their great grandma’s and she was asleep, and there was no sign of her expecting Trick-or-Treaters. Mum is suppose to call Uncle Larry and see if she’s been feeling okay.

Second stop Travis’s people…Well…There was no candy there at that point, so the Critters got activity books and some glow stick things. Oh yeah…And balloons, although the balloons weren’t from the regular household, they were from Ken! He was out there taking a break from everything else…It was good to see him again, especially since he was feeling pretty good. He tickled Harley till the boy had to run for the bathroom. *laughs*

Trick-or-Treating rocked! It was near 60 degrees…The weather was great! We popped open Appa’s hatch and jumped in while Mum drove us around. Yes, I went Trick-or-Treating! *laughs* I got myself quite the haul too. *nods*

After gathering candy we put in an appearance at the school’s Halloween carnival. It’s still not at good as it use to be…But it was a bit better than what it’s been. [And I continue to be amazed at how many people know and adore Harley…He’s got high school girls asking for hugs when they see him!]

When we got back to the house, Sonja and I did the candy swap thing a bit…Harley just sat their in his pile of treats.
Then, unfortunately, I had to take them to their fathers…Where they both proceeded to cling to me, Sonja was crying, Harley was near tears…It was awful. I hate having to leave them there with him…And he had the nerve today to tell me not to upset them by coming and getting them, and then having to drop them back off the next day. [Gee…One would think something would register in that head of his…They get upset when they have to be left there…I would think that would be a big sign that they don’t want to be there! I don’t care if they ‘are just fine’ after I leave. They don’t have a choice! If they stayed upset, I’m sure he’d spend the entire time bitching at them.]

I had, initially, going to be putting on another costume and running off. Then at one point, after getting into my Kankuro costume, considered just wearing it out later. [I do so adore that costume.] I was so frustrated though after dropping the Critters off, I came home, stripped off my costume, washed off my make-up…And trying to calm down.

After a bit I decided that staying here wasn’t going to do me any good, and I needed to get out for a while. Sooo…Tripp pants, fishnet shirt, short-sleeved black shirt, fangs…And I was off.

Went to Gaylord…Did a bit of shopping for a couple necessities…Then headed for B.C.P.
I ended up staying there for 3 hours…Had hot wings, and spent forever nursing a pink lemonade, as I wrote. *laughs* Yeah…You think of a writer out writing, they are sitting in a café, sipping a cappuccino…Me…I just have to be different…I hang out in a pizza place, sipping pink lemonade. *shakes head at self*

Oh well, whatever works, as I hadn’t written anything worth while in nearly three weeks, and I have a four page short story due in Creative Writing either Monday or Wednesday (probably the later, as it’ll take me that long to type and finish it probably). [Still need to do readings and critiquing for the class by Monday.]

Todd told me he was going on break once (Anyone surprised he was working?), so I went out back to sit with him while he was on it. He asked me what I had planned…Which was nothing.

After they closed we decided to head back to my house and watch movies. *pokes TV* There was seriously nothing on. Not until way too late/early.

Anyway…Getting out of order. *laughs*

I think I got a bit of a contact buzz prior to going into the house. O.o
Had a very loverly Pomegranate and Raspberry wine cooler once in the house. It was quite yummies actually. J
 

It was nice to have Todd over…Though ideally it could have been better. Tiredness & stress took it’s toll on me and I ended up falling asleep, repeatedly, leaning up against him.

Come 6 AM he declared it time for sleep…So off to sleep is where we went. I know he’s not much of a snuggler when it comes to sleeping…And I shouldn’t get upset or paranoid over such…But I could have really used it.

It was one of those distant sort of nights. I hate those…Mainly because it always leaves me wondering where I stand. I worry that he’s tiring of me…Even though he could of told me at any point during my 3 hours at B.C.P to go away…Could of told me shoo after closing…Could of said he was going to go home and go to sleep…But he didn’t do any of those things.

It’s just hard sometimes…I would like to hear how he feels a bit more often…Then again, I hold back too…So I really can’t say much.
Doesn’t help that I only got a very quick kiss good-

bye (Again…Should be happy that I got one at all…Especially since it was the first one of our time together this time around)…I asked if that was all I got…He said yeah, because he had morning breath. Told him I didn’t care (I’ve told him that before), but he said it mattered to him. Gods…He can be so impossible sometimes…Which I did tell him he was impossible. *slight laugh*

Homework front…

Aside from attempting to kill half of my 2-D design final black & white project…I’m maybe about ½ way done with the second part of it. I really don’t like how it’s turning out…But I don’t know what else to do with the bloody thing.

Still have to finish my Creative Writing story…But at least I’ve got a start now. [5 hand-written pages…I’m guessing that’s about 2 ½ typed…So that gives me 1 ½ to wrap it up in.] Need to read a chapter & a short story in the book.

I need to start on my pastel drawings for Drawing II. We were suppose to start them Thursday in class, but I forgot to bring my objects…So I’m running a bit late on it. I did do practice though…Got a fairly good pumpkin drawn. Though when it was just an outline I announced to Doug that I hated pastels and the assignment. *laughs*
It’s a four point assignment…Same three objects…Same composition…All that is suppose to change is the colour scheme. I can’t recall the details off hand…One natural, One in whatever colours we choose to use however, One in using only three consecutive tones, and I can’t quite recall the fourth one. *shrugs* I’ve got it written down somewhere.

Also need to start to work on my out of class assignment for that class…I’m going to use Buddy for it. [It it was only that easy to find the three objects for the assignment that needs done first!]

I still need to do some major works in both my sketchbooks.

I don’t know whether they planned it somehow, or it just works out that way…But we started colour in Drawing II on Thursday…And we are set to start colour in 2-D design on Tuesday.

Have I said I decided on my next semester’s schedule yet? I opted for the two teachers I haven’t had and don’t know over the two I’ve had and know…Mainly so I don’t have to attempt to walk from one end of campus to the other, in the freezing cold and snow that is sure to show up, in ten minutes twice a week. [I would of had 40 minutes the other two days.]

*brain collapses for a moment* Ug…What was I doing? *shakes head* Oh well…

I think that’s about everything.

*crawls deeper into my hoodie* [Formerly Todd’s hoodie] I’ve declared it pyjamas tonight. Even though he was here last night I still miss him already.

*is so tired* I will probably be collapsing quite soon.

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Critter costume pictures hopefully will be coming soon…As long as I’m not too lazy about getting them uploaded. There should be some of me as well. Crap…I don’t think I got any of Buddy dressed up…Or Crow before he started to unravel (Yeah…Need to fix him…He was just too cool).

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*kicks Dan* Yeah, knowing him (& Ann, for that matter)…if you didn’t give him what he wanted, Ann would remind him of this when the time comes for you to ask for them early. *kicks both of them* Yay for trick-or-treating! Trick-or-treating has died out around the trailer park, I think. We haven’t had any around here for years, and this year was no exception. Such a shame. Yesh, Sissy, you is being paranoid, because…yesh, you gots to stay around B.C.P. for hours and then Todd came home with you. If he was tiring of you, I would think he would have gone to his own home, but he didn’t. 🙂 *pokes homework* One of those necessary evils? Blah. *HUGS*

November 2, 2008

*hugs you tightly* do you know.. my daughter told me that her father was considering trying to get custody? the man who has seen her maybe 8 times since our divorce when she was less than one? whom i begged to come and get her when she was 12 and he said he wasn’t financially able to be a single parent. the man who gave me full custody as he didn’t want the responsibility. some days i wonder if weeven speak the same language.