Friday, Saturday:Posted Sunday-Suckie title I know

Started on Friday:
You know…I think I know what part of Dan’s problem is (though I’m not even going to wager a guess on all his problems and issues, as I’m sure there are waaaaaaaaaay too many to even scratch the surface of). He looks at Sonja…And he sees Me. She’s quickly becoming my little Goth girl. Her own doing…I’m not one to unduly influence anyone. She likes black, she likes dark things; skeletons, bats, black cats, things that go bump in the night (Hell, it’s better than being afraid of them!). She likes the same kinds of clothes I do…And attempts to kidnap some of my clothes every chance she gets. She’s *gasp* Creative! She enjoys writing, and using her mind and imagination. Gods, I’m so sorry that his start up kit came without one, and that apparently so did his new wife’s and his step-children, but that is no reason to punish Sonja, and Harley for that matter. They are creative, intelligent, wonderful children.

Sonja called Dan’s mother this morning before going to school. Since no one here could figure out what was wrong with having and using an imagination, we though maybe she would have some kind of idea. Apparently, from what Sonja said, Dan’s going to get a call from his mother…Maybe then we can figure out why it’s sooooo wrong. *shrugs*

*it’s Saturday now*
Mum suggested while walking, and I brought up the thought I had in my first paragraph, that maybe it’s more like Ann sees me in Sonja, and wants to squash it. Not going to happen. Sonja knows how to be herself, and isn’t going to let anyone dictate who she is to be.

The rest of Friday went something like this…
Went walking in Boyne with Mum & Libby…With the knowledge that Reese wanted me to go to the football game with her…And that Todd hadn’t bothered to call me and it was his day off, & I had called around noon and left a message on his machine.
About half-way through walkies, Todd did manage to call. He’d been asleep till then (yeah, it was like nearly 5). Since I was walking & he was still pretty much asleep, he said he’d call me back later.

Got home, called Todd’s to let him know I was home. No answer…Bit surprise, he fell back to sleep.

Well, Reese calls about 7…& I still haven’t heard back from Todd…I decide I’m not going to wait around all pathetic hoping he decides to call.

So I’m redressed, since it was with the thought of scaring Muggles, I tossed on my one pair of Tripp pants, my Tripp tank-top, my trench…Put on eyeliner & lipstick, spiked/chained collar, & my leather wrist bands…So I’m ready to go…THEN the phone rings.
Phone call ends with Todd saying he was going to take a shower…Me telling him I was taking my cell phone with me, so he could call me and let me know what was going on, & that I was going to the football game to meet up with Reese…I think the words were ‘make an appearance’…Then I figured he’d call, and I could skip out.

So…I go to football game. *pokes at evil sports* Why! Oh why me!
Reese drags me around, introducing me to random people…Including the 19 year old that is afraid/was afraid of Sonja, just because she’s apparently a spookie little child while she’s swinging.
Get from the entrance to the bleacher section for the home team…Walk the entire length of the bleachers, to the steps up beside where the band members sit. Start walking up, get nearly to the top, and here is a boy, arms stretched out, looks like he’s going to explode if he doesn’t get a hug…Reese walks past, and pushes ME into the band section…Right into Gunnar’s waiting arms. Apparently the boy thought he needed a hug from me. O.o
Later on he tried to use me as a shield…Not that it was overly successful.

Around 8 I tried calling Todd, as he hadn’t called yet, and I was fairly certain he should have been out of the shower by then. No answer…My thought, he’d fallen back to sleep (or decided to go out drinking).

About 8:30 or so, phone rings…With a number NOT programmed into my phone. I answer it…Todd! Instead of calling me when he got done in the shower, and before heading over…He called me after he got to Mancelona.

If I was better with directions, he would of come and met me at the football game…But since I suck with directions, I just went and met him at McDonald’s, then we went back to my house.
 

We were going to make a fire…The fire just did not want to take off though…So instead we came in to watch movies. Watched Eurotrip…Most of Nightmare on Elm Street…Left with about 30-45 minutes left of it to go get Todd some food.

Had intentions of going back to McDonald’s, but they were closed…None of the gas stations in town were open either…So we ended up going to Gaylord to B.C.P. so he could pick up a pizza.
Came back…watched most of Nightmare on Elm Street 2…Until he decided he was tired, and wanted to go to sleep. So we went to bed.

[Somewhere in there, there was talk which pretty much said he still planned to be around come summer. *smiles* Such as, changing his snowboarding location, so he’ll be closer to me on his days off in the winter…& that the mode of transportation he plans on changing to come summer will still be able to get him here. Despite my paranoia and worry…I have to keep that in mind.]

Admittedly, I wish things were more cut & dry…Wish there was the almost casual exchanges of ‘I love you’ on occasion at least. Instead, I get confusion, as he never acts the same way twice, and I never feel like I know what he’s thinking, or how he’s feeling. But he’s been cheated on in the past…& I’m guessing hurt in that process, even if he tries to pass it off as nothing big. So it’s understandable that he would be a little hesitant (or a lot) in some matters. I just have to learn patience, and let him know I’m here, and that I’m not going to stray.

Which…I think he does worry…Which is bad, since, admittedly, I worry about the same thing…As he was, from what I heard, one to hook up with a girl, get what he needed/wanted, then be done with her. Granted…He told me himself, since our first time together, he hasn’t been with anyone else. I’ve told him the same…Sometimes I wonder if he really believes me.

At one point last night he asked me if I still talked to Tony…I told him no, which is the truth. Heck, I deleted the freaks phone number from my cell phone before Todd & I were an official couple even. Thing is…I know Tony still has my number in his cell phone, or did a couple months ago, because Todd had seen it, and mentioned it. I know, or can guess at it anyway, that he still has the thought that I was trying to hook up with Tony in his head. I wish there was some way I could just purge that thoug

ht from his mind. [Gods, to have Raven’s powers…Though it would be wrong of me to go around using them without permission…Though, on another note, would be nice to make Dan forget he had children, then I could free the Critters from him.]

Well…I should be in bed…Asleep…I still have homework to do. Mostly drawing I think…Sketchbook stuff…*thinks* I know I need to glue some stuff in my sourcebook for 2-D design…Work on my scene for Creative Writing (which is due a week from Monday)…*thinks* Ug…I don’t know…Brain is getting scrambled.

Oh, and Zetsu keeps beating up on Tobi tonight…They started that when Reese was here…She’s a bad influence I guess. Though Tobi did pee on her while she had him out. *snickers* Anyway…I hope they straighten up and quit fighting…I had gerbils that got into a fight…The one ended up dying a few days later. L Nero Bianco is currently watching them wrestle around…Though for a second there it looked like Tobi was getting the upper hand.

Anyway, sleep…Yesh, that is where I was headed…To hopefully dream of my boy, and how I can make him realize I love him, only him, and won’t do anything to hurt him…& make him see that he can show me how he feels without worry.

[Oh yesh…A MEGA Thankie to my loverly sissy. *HUGS RAYA* Thank you for listening, and sharing your vast past-life acquired knowledge with me. It really does make me feel better…Even if I still have my paranoia, I know I can work on it…And that things just take time. [Things take time! *giggles*] I love you sissy!