Random Babble…&…Raven’s Parents

I tried to call to get an eye appointment today…Don’t seem to have a working number. Mum is suppose to remember to try and get me the number so I can get an appointment set up. Of course my eyes felt fine when I woke up…Now after failing to get an appointment, the one is fighting with me. [*head desk* Figured out why the number probably didn’t work…*kicks area codes*]

Pet’s mother was suppose to be coming to get the Critters today. They were going to stay the night up there, go to a birthday party for their cousin, then the pet was going to bring them home Saturday. Plans have changed. Pet is suppose to now, if his mother gets a hold of him, take the Critters up there tomorrow for the party…And then they are going to stay up there, and his mother bring them back home Sunday.

I should be doing something…I’m suppose to be doing something…Yet…*sigh* Right now…As everyone else’s worlds are seemingly unraveling around them…I’m doing what I can to hold the strings together. My own strings are unraveling as well…But I’m trying to keep them tied in place too. What is wrong with this bloody month! This year…This year is suppose to be better. January was hell…February was February…March…March blows hard core it seems.

Part of me feels like crying…But another part seems to think to do so is too much work.

I can’t get messenger to work currently…Hopefully it’ll be better by this evening…I can’t go without the contact. As bad as that may sound…It’s all I have currently.

I’m laying here…Not happy with myself. I just need to get up and do something, and perhaps that would help a little…But it’s so much easier to just lay here. I hate that too.

The sky is blue…Nice bright blue. I suppose…I’ll get up off my lazy arse. Walk the mail that needs to go out to the mailbox…Though I suppose I need to write out a couple more checks first…Come back…And work on something. Need to do some kind of exercise. It’s 30 degrees. *sigh* Okay…Now the hard part…Getting moving.

~ 1:00 PM

Anyway…Here is a question I pondered upon waking up with the Critters to ready them for school…Then proceeded to misplace for a bit, but it has nicely, reemerged for me to ask.

Have any of you, upon awakening, had the knowledge that you did have what you feel were vivid, detailed, in-depth dreams…Yet in the same instance, couldn’t remember a bloody thing about them? I know I dreamt last night. I know they were detailed. But…*shakes head* But I can’t even recall the tiniest minute detail. Only the knowledge that there was something there.

I can’t help thinking there was something important in it…Something substantle. Maybe it’s wishful thinking…But still…To know I had this/these dreams…And to have them lost completely. Granted, I’m sure we all dream, all the time, it’s just remembering them that seems to be the issue. A lot of mornings when you wake up it’s like ‘No, I didn’t dream at all.’ You still dreamt, you just don’t recall doing so. Then there are the mornings that, ‘Yeah, I had this dream but…I can’t recall anything.’ But there is still some kind of sense, a softer sense I guess that what I’m currently trying to explain. Yeah…They were there, but they were, well…Just there. This is…*is getting frustrated not being able to explain it properly* Blah…Just seems like there was something…*pokes at brain that’s getting scattered*

I’ll come back later…But I did make out all the checks for the bills…Get them all in the mailbox (aside the one I need an envelope for…I need to buy some envelopes)…Did some exercises…Tried to take a picture of ‘Deidre’ (Raven’s mother), know who I’m going to use to portray Ambrose (Raven’s father)…Now I just need to know why I’m suddenly in need of dead people’s pictures. *shrugs*

~3:19

Okay…How freaked out should I be that the day I find someone to represent Raven’s father just happens to also be said actors birthday? *shakes head* That’s just spookies to me. *wanders off again*

~3:51

Totally HATEd the pictures I attempted to take for Deidre. But I did find some random red heads picture online that I suppose could work…If you overlook the fact that her eyes are brown instead of blue. *shrugs* Oh well.

Okay…As I can’t think to put anything else here…I’ll grace you all with Raven’s parentage. *laughs*