Another day…Another mess of emotions.

I cried myself to sleep last night (Actually, I’m writing this prior to going to sleep…But I already know that I am going to cry myself to sleep. I can feel it. *sigh*).

*looks at above statement* Yeah, so, yeah…That’s what I did. Arms wrapped around a not as fluffy as it once use to be, fluffy white pillow. Just feeling…utterly lonely last night I guess. *shrugs* I get like that…I know, we all have such moments. Just wanting to have someone hold me…It would help if I even knew someone was out there, wishing they could hold me…Thinking about holding me. I don’t need them to love me…Just to want me.

*shakes head* Which I’m sure sounds pretty bad…But…At one point, that’s all I had. It was satisfying for that time. *frowns* Makes me wonder if I’m not willing to use whatever means necessary to get what I want…Even if I know I shouldn’t.

ANYWAY…That was this morning/afternoon…Not saying the thoughts aren’t still there…Just saying…You know, I’m not sure WHAT I’m saying.

I’ve got a killer soar throat and headache…Day two for the both of them…Day…Three of four for the headache. It comes and goes…Just when it’s here, it deffinately makes itself known. I don’t know if it’s lack of proper sleep (as it has been worse than usual this week…MANY three and four o’clock mornings), or lack of proper eating. I know bloody well that eating will mess my head up…Still…I can’t seem to manage to do the things I need to do. *sigh* [Was in one of those hate the mirror modes as well…Feeling a bit better after todays bath and hair washing. Still need to figure out what to do with this hair for sure.]

I’m in the middle of watching The Scoprion King…Watched The Mummy, and The Mummy Returns before it. Tis a Mummy Marathon! *laughs* [Though everyone keeps asking me how The Mummy and The Scorpion King get to be connected…Other than he was in The Mummy Returns…I haven’t a clue…I haven’t see this before! Gods people…I do NOT know EVERYTHING.]

Did manage to get some written on my story…Not my neglected roleplay entry though…I still need something like 3,199 words to get where I need to be…Doubt I’ll get anymore for the night though…So by tomorrow I’ll need to add another 1,667 to that. Still…I can do this…I know I can…Have to…Yes, yes, yes. *nods*
Gave up coming up with a name on my own for the one guy in my story…*pokes Grim with a stick* [Take a pick as to which one…As the unnamed boy is now named Carl Reaper…And tis nicknamed Grim. Yeah, yeah, he talked me into it. He may regret that later. *smirks* *laughs*]

Have a final records orthadonist appt. tomorrow. Critters have half a day of school. O.o So I have to take them with me…*falls over* I’ve told them IF they behave, I’ll take them to Burger King afterwards…They have HAPPY FEET toys in their kid’s meals right now. *smiles*