A world full of drama

In answer to the notes left on my last entry:

Putting aside anything having to deal with roleplay for the current moment. Yes, I AM defending Grim. He has been my friend for six years, and I’ve seen every side of him. I’ve been the only person who can manage to deal with him at all times. Yes he has his moments when even I’d like to strangle him (currently, this is not one of them). He’s not going to treat everyone with the same courtesy he treats me, as he deems me more important than most of the population.

He’s not walking all over me, and I don’t see where you are coming up with this. How is he the only one benefiting? Granted, no we aren’t going to be the happy little couple, walking off hand in hand into the sunset. But that’s not real life for most people. There is no making him realize it, he’s not trying to make something more out of things than what they are. So what is this attitude he’s taken twords me? Grim tells me I’m beautiful. Gods…how evil of him [Must be really evil, as I’m actually starting to believe it might be just a little bit true]. He makes me feel special, important, and like I matter. Yep…those are such horrible things. And these are things he did before we met in real life…They’ve only inceased since actually getting to meet.

I’ve dealt with manipulation…Mike was the master of it. He had my head so fucked up I didn’t know whether I was coming or going. At one point he could of talked me into doing anything he asked, no matter what would come of it. Grim would never do that to me…and when he thought even for an instant that he had reached the low levels Mike was capable of, he hated himself.

I’m sorry you has such a shit childhood growing up, but you can’t make assumtions that other people’s lives are going to follow the path that your parent’s did. I’m not your mother, and I’m not going to treat my children like your mother treated you and your brother…so they are not going to turn out like you and your brother.

As for roleplay (which, yeah, I know is a mute point, but I still feel the need to address it)…I sat by and did nothing when you wanted Chase to be Severus’s daughter, though I hated it. You can ask Raya, neither of us liked it. But I didn’t want to cause trouble, and Raya wasn’t going to say anything without me wanting to, I didn’t want to make waves. You came to us, seemingly wanting your story to touch on ours, and no, we still didn’t like the thought…but we figured the details would be worked out…Yet with seemingly wanting the stories connected you ignored things that we had stated prior. Me and Raya were called out, told to make our feelings known…well we made our feelings known, yet we get accused of sitting back and doing nothing. Granted, I could of tugged on Grim’s leash, and ask him to heel…but, I didn’t. I chose not to.

Kitana MacKid aka Kit
Raven Pegasus 

Raven: Something has become extremely clear to me in the last 12 or so hours, and you need to know about it.

I think Grim is not just "in love" with you. I believe he is obsessed with you. He claimed that he left those notes in your defense.

Whatever else it may seem, Raven, obsessive love is dangerous. So he succeeded in harrassing me out of the RPG, and what next? If I were you (and I’m not), I would be setting the record straight with him right now.

You’ve already realized that the two of you can’t be in a relationship, now or ever. Tell him that; he needs to know. If he threatens you, get a restraining order. If I’m right and he’s obsessed, then I’m not going to be the only one he terrorizes.

I’m worried, Raven. I’m scared shitless by the fact that he’s done this. And like I said, it may feel good now, but it’s going to get dangerous. And I’m worried by the fact that you seem to let him do this. Why? He’s not helping you, and you’re a big girl: I assume that if you’d had a legitimate problem with my story, you’d have told me yourself. There was no reason for him to do what he did.

Please, Raven, for everyone’s sakes. ~ [Almost a Sarah] [p]

*looks at private note* Yeah…Okay…
For starters…Grimmie is not even "in love" with me…He loves me, I love him…but we’re not "in love". So he can hardly have an obsessive love for me.
As I previously stated, we’ve known each other for six years, and yes, over those years, Grim has become protective of me. He started this after I had made my thoughts known. And I did so to him, as, like with Raya, I tell him just about everything.

As for the fact that we can’t be in a relationship…That is of Grim’s own chosing. HE is the one that laid that foundation, not I. If he was obsessed with me, it would be quite the opposite (been there, done that, dealt with the fall out). In fact I can take a quote from the letter of his I posted. "About us…I don’t think that it’d be a good idea. I do love you Kit, but I don’t think I am a good person for you. I’m young and naive, and I think there’s someone out there that’s better for you." If he was obsessed he wouldn’t say there was someone better for me, and that he didn’t feel he was a good person for me. I’ve been through obsessive love before.

Now…On with the rest of it. Yes, I told Grim I was annoyed because of the entry, and he does what he loves to do best. And when you ‘called us out’ and wanted us to say our peice…Raya and I both left notes. Mine which read:

Okay, first off…I hate to say, I really hate saying anything against anyone if I think it might upset someone. [Hence why I’m still with the pet.] So it is so much easier to say ‘sick-em’ to someone else. Granted not always the best approach…okay, probably never the best approach. But I did make my feelings and thoughts known to Grim. So no, he’s not putting words in mine, or Raya’s mouth.

You asked for us for our thoughts, and really didn’t listen to what we said. It was Raya’s storyline to have the Dark Lord’s child to begin with, but due to other things, decided it was quite a stretch. I added the reason he wanted the child so badly was to keep his power going. The entry contradicts several things we have put in as a basis to plot as well. 1) Voldemort wanting to break Severus/Raven up…you’re entry pretty much tries to say he wouldn’t do anything like that. 2) That Bella and Voldemort tried…which we’ve stated that Bella is jealous of Raya’s getting to be with the Dark Lord, as she has been rejected the ‘honour’ repeatedly.

As for my dear Grimmie…Yeah, he is a bit tantrum

-prone on occasion, and he does love attention. But controlling and manipulative…Nah. And perhaps he is a bastard to some [er…most]…but he’s never been one to me.

You’re worried about the attitude he’s taking twords me? As you said, he’s "hurtful and manipulative to everyone but you…" So he’s not causing me any harm…what is that to cause worry?

 As for your statement of "I know the Grimidiot is your brother and all…" Grimmie ceased to be my brother a while ago…Grimmie is my friend and lover, if we must give him a title.

So I didn’t NOT say anything. I didn’t reply along with Grim and Raya last night, as I was working on replying to the list of notes you had left me, wanting to make sure I didn’t miss anything. And they would of just got deleted if I had anyway.

And no, I’m not going to defend myself, as yes, I should of spoken up prior to all hell breaking loose. But I didn’t just sit back…you said to say something…I did. Things could of been handled better and diffrently. Most people, when it comes to Grim, do one of two things…Ignore him, so he gets bored and wanders off, or poke right back, which seems to just get him all riled up…which he enjoys greatly, and I have been doing my best to surpress his urge to ‘break’ someone. Really, I didn’t think he could ‘break’ you.