7/8/06

With the passing of this last week, the events of last Sunday have become bittersweet. *sigh*  Was great fun while there, and occuring. But now…it  is past, and there is no knowledge of when another such time will occur. For a brief time, I lived. And now…now I simply exsist once more.

Tis the feeling a few of us are feeling of late. Longing for a life with even a little bit of excitement. Even our Remus is wishing for the life of a 38 year old werewolf, just for a bit of excitement. Raya, with all the trials she is set to face…and of course me. Granted, Raven does have a bit to look forward too…though a bit of not so grande stuff set in place as well.

[Just a side note from the middle of no where…I just seen the most awsome episode of Teen Titans}
*wonders if anyone realizes that’s where Raven orginally got her first name and hair color*

Anyway…back to where I was…I’m rubbish at making friends. I go all quiet and shy, and become afraid to speak for fear of sounding stupid around new people. It takes me a while to open up/warm up to people I guess.  After I get to know people better, once I feel comfortable, it’s much diffrent. But it’s getting to that point. It’s just so hard for me.

To add to that…Where am I suppose to find these people? Like I’ve said before, I usually meet people through people, can’t seem to just do it on my own. There was school…In elemetary school it wasn’t so bad…it’s just as time passes, and people begin to say or do the things that begin to weigh heavy on your mind later, even without realizing it.

I’m not a bar person…I don’t feel comfortable in that setting.

Well…it seems that I have to go on kitten rescue duty…perhaps I’ll get back to this thought later….