I will call this an entry thingy…yes, that’s it

I started writing an entry last night…but I decided that after just so far it undoubtedely made no sense what-so-ever. Blah…I don’t know why I was so bloody tired, unless it was due to being up so late Saturday night/Sunday morning, then getting up at a bit before 7am…and not getting a real nap in at all. My head is hurting do to messed up sleep. Hopefully I get it all sorted out soon…though I won’t be getting a nap in today unless it’s after 6pm.

Mum just got home from talking to the mechanic, who was being evasive and hard to get a hold of. Seems my Jeep isn’t done after all. *sigh* *pouts* They’ve sent him the wrong axle for the differental twice now…He’s suppose to be getting the right one today or tomarrow….Gods, I hope so, I so want my Jeep back. He says he tried calling…but there were no beeps while I was on the phone…and Mum didn’t hear any when she was on the phone….And I stayed offline until after 7pm. Anyway…Jeep is suppose to be done Thursday at the latest, unless he gets the part today, then it’s suppose to be done tomarrow.

Which brings me to my next gripe….*kicks phoneline* The computer phoneline is pretty much toast…We’ll probably have to get the phone company out here to replace it. But since Mum is waiting for the other shop to call her…I can’t go online during the day. *pouts* Which bloody well sucks.

Harley has a Dr. appt. today…so he’s going to have to ride in Mum’s noisy Jeep there. And get shots…so he’s so not going to be happy when it’s done. Though it might be good that he’s going, as he started to lose his voice. Not sure why, it just seems to want to leave….which might be a nice thing. hehehe…I’m so mean. *laughs*

I spent some time outside yesterday, wandering around, Peter hiding in my shirt. *laughs* I like taking him outside, but I’m not sure he’s real keen on the idea…Not that I can blame him…There are cats out there! *laughs*

Mike called yesterday. He plans on calling Thursday, as his wife has to work that day. *beats him with a stick* I swear, his reemergence in my life is only going to serve to drive me more mental than I already am. Although for the most part we had what would pass for a ‘normal’ conversation yesterday. He made on quick otherwise reference, and left it at that.
I guess Jon and Cinda are pretty much on the way to divorcing as well…Mike is wondering if Jon is figuring that Cinda and he were together at one point. But on top of that, while they were camping for the summer, Cinda would leave at 10 at night and not return until 5 in the morning. She was going to her mother’s house to get on the internet, where she was getting naked pictures from guys she was chatting with. Guess Jon was none to happy about the whole thing.
Back to the Mike thing…*sigh*
Common sense tells me I know how he’s always treated me, and it hasn’t been very good at all. He’s pretty much always used me. Not that I wasn’t really just using him last time…as I come to realize that’s pretty much what it was. I thought I still had feelings for him when things began…but looking back on it…I think it was just things from the past still lingering in the recesses of my mind.
Raya asked me a good question though…"Can I resist him?" I really…don’t know. *sigh* Which makes the thought of going to see him something I’m not sure I want to do. I mean yeah, I deserve the release that he can provide…but…I don’t really know what’s making me so reluctant.

Perhaps it’s the thought that maybe there is something better out there. Not that I really have anything to offer to anyone else, as I’m reluctant to cause waves and speak up at this point. But I do know, and have come to realize, it can’t always be this way…the time will come and I will have to do something, instead of living like this…I am unhappy, as I’m sure you’ve all figured out already…

Though I do have a bit of news on the ‘things that keep me where I am’ front. The pet decided that he wanted a diffrent truck, again. *rolls eyes* And in doing so had to add to his credit union loan, again. *rolls eyes again* But…for once, in the process, he did something useful! Wow, it’s a bloody miracle! Mum’s Jeep, and the red truck have been taken off the loan as collateral. So that mean’s no more full coverage insurance on Mum’s Jeep, and no more storage on the red truck. Still have to get the titles taken care of, and the pet’s name off Mum’s Jeep title. So that’s one worry away.

The loan at the bank is still at $8,855.66. That one has the house on it as collateral. I can’t lose my house, or the property. The property has been in my Mum’s family since her grandparents. They had a great expanse of land, and then the seperated it among their children. The part we got was Mum’s mother’s. She gave it to us so we would have a place to put a house when I was pregnant with Sonja. We has already camped out on it a couple times.

It’s a great piece of property…20+ acres, most of it wooded, except where the house is sitting, and what yard we have, and the strip down the powerline. There is a river that runs through it too, and all kinds of wildlife. Though haven’t seen much in the line of squirrels, but I suspect that is due to the over abundance of cats that we usualy have…Did see a couple squirels a year or so ago though. Anyway…we do have lots of birds, including blue heron that live out back by the river, there is suppose to be a pair of bald eagles, and we have rather large owls (I have yet to see the owls personally…but from what has been said by those who have seen them…they would be really good at delievering large owl posts. *laughs*) There is a bear, somewhere, I have yet to see it either…but it was spotted in the road, I think last summer. We’ve got foxes and coyotes. Racoons (which have already started to come up front for the catfood again this year). Opposums, though don’t see them much…and we did find a skunk sitting on the porch one night. And deer…there are deer out there too. It’s been quite a few years ago now that I had my chance meeting with the one…It was running through the woods, and I was running after it. Just for the sake of running…It stopped and I stopped…and we just kind of looked at each other, and then it took off again.

Wow…that entry went sooo off from where it was. *laughs*

On to roleplay…*hugs roleplay* I actually have an entry written for Peter for a year and a half from now! *laughs* Peter…our unlikly hero. *pokes at Uncle Remus for still being crabby twords him* *laughs*

I need to get more stuff written…I had thoughts while I was driving yesterday, as I had to go pick up my contacts, but I didn’t take paper with me, so I lost part of them…other than the inital idea itself…but I lost dialog, and thoughts, and what not. *sigh*

A couple of the notes left on Raven’s entry for Monday were just priceless. *laughs* I really can’t wait to see what Thursday’s entry brings. hehehe

12 days to the party for Mum’s shop…I still need shoes! Sometimes I wonder what the bloody hell I’m thinking going. But I deserve something that could potentially be fun…just a group of people is kind of intimidating…exspecially people I don’t know. I think I’m doublely nervous about meeting Ryan…I don’t know why, I shouldn’t be…I shouldn’t think of it as anyth

ing other than meeting another person…though there is that whole thing of him asking my Mum when she’s finaly going to let him met me. I don’t think I’ve ever really had anyone want to meet me. *laughs*

I go walkie today…Have I already mentioned that? *shrugs* I can’t remeber, and can’t be bothered to scroll up and look. Bad me. *laughs*

Oh yes, before I forget….13 days til my wonderful sissy’s birthday. *hugs Raya*

Well…since I won’t be able to post this til later, as Mum is waiting for a phone call, so I can’t get online…*sigh* I’ll end it for the moment…perhaps add something when I get back from taking Harley to his appt. I’ll go stare longingly at my desktop wallpaper….*sigh* *laughs*

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Nothing new really after walk…Aside from my impromptu game of hide and seek, which I was SO not happy about. Due to Harley’s dr. appt. I was half an hour behind schedule for walking. Well we wandered all over, and ended up by the cemetery, so I decided to walk on through. Got in there and seen that Dominic’s elephant wasn’t where it belonged…in fact, it was no where in sight! I was NOT happy in the least. Decided to make a loop through part of it, and luckily, I found his elephant. Someone had moved it to in front of another headstone, probably a good 10-15 foot away! *growls*
At least it’s safe and sound once more where it belongs.