What is the point of a title…

Read the Hufflepuff Essay today…was quite disappointed in it actually. It really didn’t say much at all about them, other than their ‘attributes’ show up in the things the other houses do. So we all have a little bit of all of them in us or what not.  Four more essays to read in the book.
1)  Harry Potter as Schooldays Novel
2)  Harry Potter and the Post-Tramatic Stress Disorder Counselor
3)  The Proper Wizard’s Guide to Good Manners
4)  Why Killing Harry Is the Worst Outcome for Voldemort

I think the next thing I’m going to try to put some thought into is fixing the broken relationship between Raven and Severus that results at the end of the summer.

I think I’ve been reminded of a rather ugly part of myself all a sudden. The lovly world of the downward spiral, where it’s so easy to use something to try and cover up the pain of everything else, as long as that something is there. I, irl, don’t have access to that something anymore…again…(Well I do to a degree…but not in the form I want or desire)…I seen it mirrored in Raven the last few days. Not in the current rpg…but ‘future things’…but as such…those are not always written in stone. 

I never thought she would be so willing to embrace the spiral…to let it take her down a path that she would never normally go down…though I should of seen the signs. Raven is a lot like me. There is no getting around that point. So why would I ever imagine she could have her happy ending…

Truth of the matter is…I was feeling kind of alive…kind of free again.

Now…I’m feeling…kind of lost and confused…like something that never really happened, ended just the same. If that makes any sense.

Maybe I’m just not getting enough sleep…I know that’s true.

And I feel like I made someone feel bad because of the whole thing too…And *sigh* I don’t know…I didn’t mean to.

Maybe I need a real life…anyone know where I can buy one?

Oh…by the way…the non-exsistent people larva…it did have a name… Orion Ambrose

I don’t know anymore…I don’t know anything…*sigh*