Bloody hell, I can’t come up with a title for this

Okay, this goes back to the question I asked at the end of my previous entry. And yeah, amazingly enough, it has roleplay connections. *laughs*  I’m still not 100% that it’ll get to this point…though it’s probable, since I’ve spent so much time with it in my head. *takes out brain shakes it* *puts it back in* And no matter what, it doesn’t seem to want to go away. So I guess that’s just one of those things that’s suppose to be there. (Why can’t anything ever be easy.)

I got an answer in a private note that went fairly well with my thoughts. (Hope you don’t mind I shared.)

"Yes I do know the difference. I love my wife, I am in love with my soulmate. But I love them both. The feelings are different for them both. But most often if both of them asked you to leave with them for wherever.. you would choose the person you were IN LOVE with."

Here is part of the entry (some things changed to hide some facts) (Also…for those of you who follow the roleplay…this is after the end of the school year, and some other things that happen…and somewhere along the lines Severus has gone missing, leaving Raven feeling quite lonely. But no worries…Severus will return, and Raven and him will still be together, though I’m guessing there is going to be some rough going for a bit.) :

"Do you know the diffrence between loving someone, and being in love with someone?" She asked, staring up at the ceiling.

"What? I never gave it much thought." ~Yes you have, well, maybe not the distinction.~ "Are they not the same?"

"No, there is a diffrence." Raven returned. "Being ‘in’ love with someone means being willing to give them your heart and soul. That they could very well be your world, the reason you wake in the morning. That your world could very well crumble all around you if something were to happen to them."

"Like how you feel about Severus." ***** ventured.

Raven smiled, nodding slightly. "Yes, like how I feel about Severus." She turned over on her side to face the man beside her. "Do you know what loving someone means?"

"I believe so." There was a look in the man’s eyes, as he looked up at the ceiling, avoiding the girl’s gaze. ~I’d venture to guess you know the other one as well.~ A brief sigh escape the girl, but she continued. "Loving someone means caring a great deal about them. It means wanting them in your life, not being able to picture your life without them, or at least not wanting to." Raven chewed on her lip. ***** still stared at the ceiling. ~Look at me damn it.~ Almost as if by her will, he turned on his side to face her as well.

"Why are we talking about this?" ~Because I have something to bloody well say.~ She knew it was a topic that tended to make him uncomfortable, and that wasn’t her intention. "I thought we had decided not to discuss this."

Raven took a deep breath, letting it escape. She reached out a hand, running it along his cheek. "You know I’m in love with Severus." The man before her frowned, pain etched in the depths of his eyes. ~I do hate to see you hurt so.~ She swallowed a bit harder than usual, licking her lips nervously. "But…" ~Bloody hell, this is harder than I thought it would be.~

"But what?" For once, something akin to a kind of hope shinned in the man’s eyes, which caused Raven to smile slightly."

"But…" She began again, "I do love you." Raven bit into her lip, her breath caught in her throat. *****’s eyes went wide, and he blinked at her unbeliving of the words he had just heard. "*****?" She whispered, as the man still stared at her, she blinked back at him.

"Raven?" It was his turn to swallow hard, "I…I…" A small laugh escaped the girl, and he turned slightly red.

Raven smiled at the bewildered man. "It’s okay *****, in case you’ve forgotten, I know how you feel."

"But…you…and…I…"

Raven moved closer to him, covering his mouth with hers, and feeling him relax under her embrace. "It changes nothing you know," she began. "I just thought, perhaps, you would want to know." She whispered.

*****’s arms wrapped around her, drawing her near. "I’d never ask more than you could give." Leaning her head against his chest, Raven closed her eyes, letting her mind wander once more. Her heart, her soul, they were Severus’s, they always would be. She loved Severus with every fiber in her being, and she couldn’ t imagine a future life without him. She agonized that he’d never return, and it tore her up insides, which is why she needed comfort, needed to know there was someone who card about her. *****’s hand smoothed out her hair, "I…love you, too." It was something Raven had already known, and it wasn’t the first time he’d told her, save for ending the sentence in too. She smiled to herself, as she snuggled closer to the man.

Um…yeah…Okay…*shakes head* Actually, I still can’t believe I wrote that. *laughs* My mind is an evil thing. And why do I get the feeling Raya is laughing at me…*looks over at Raya* Are you laughing at me?