Scattered thoughts

Well first off…I was going to write this earlier, but my computer went mental…which is does a lot. Minor mental, just a reboot to be able to reconnect..which is usually a daily thing after the ininital starting. Anyway…

I think all the costumes have been taken care of. Need to get Critter A to try hers on all together…as well as Critter B to try his on, which he’s done in bits and pieces…And I think I’m taken care of sufficiently. Worked on what I had to do of my costume while watching Tutenstien today. *laughs* I thought it fitting.  I’ve got a scarab beatle on it that came from Egypt. I had an Egytpian box set of stuff I got a while back. One of the things was a thing to make a beaded necklace with actual beads from Egypt, the scarab was part of it.

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On a totally diffrent note…I’m feeling…quite…anxious? for lack of a better word. Jumpy, edgy…quite Wormtailisque *weak laugh*   Deep, slow breathing helps some.  Still…feels…I don’t know. 

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Poor Peter, hasn’t been out of his cage yet today…It needs cleaned as well. But I also need someone to help…I need someone to hold him while I clean it…I guess I’m going to have to find an alternative…I can’t rely on anyone to be around to help me out…not surprising, not really.

Mum was suppose to dye my hair today…bleach out the roots, so I can get it back to it’s proper purple shade.

I told mum what Blue2 noted me in quiet…Mum told me she thinks I should at least go in and get a physical…blah…I hate going to doctors…But I know everyone is right…I should go…I will go…really, I will.  I have to go get my eyes check again too…it’s been too long, and the way I wear my contacts…I need to go, get them updated.

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Need to do this…Need to do that….Need, need, need….Blah….

Need to sort out things for Christmas/Yule shopping…I know I have to do it, I know it needs done…I like shopping I really do…but I’m still reluctant to spend the money, more so when I’ve actually got some than when I don’t…*shakes head* I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  Aside from maybe that I know even though I have it now, if I spend it, I won’t…and then…then that’s when I’ll need it for something else.

Blah…*sticks tongue out at t.v.*  Remind me I’m suppose to be making a sign for my grandmother to tell her trick-or-treaters to help themselves to the candy.  Blah…I never want to get that old…too old to do things that I take for granted today.  I would rather be gone from this world than not be able to do everything I need to do for myself.

Named the black kitten today…(Moody has disappeared by the way)…It’s a classic looking Halloween kitty…All black and sleek.  Named it Samhain (Sow’  en)…Critter B was already chimming it after me, and so I think it might stick. Critter A is not here this week-end.

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Feeling…a bit better…more at ease…Quite unnerving that other…Not pleasant in the least. *shakes head*

I still have to carve pumpkins…I think I will have to do that tomarrow…I think I got out of going to where I didn’t want to go.

Blah…Can’t think…Brain still jumping from subject to subject…

I need…Someone willing to be a body for me. *laughs* That just sounds bad…though I suppose it is…*collapses into a pile of self* Maybe I should go back to sleep…like everyone else here (Mum and Critter B).