Live and Learn

Tonight I don’t know how to be a friend. So busy and stressed with my own life, I don’t know what to say. Been there and done that, older and wiser, but advice not taken. 10 years difference is coming between us like is hasn’t (in my mind) before. I know you hurt, and I am sorry, this is life, you need to be hurt to move on, you need to hurt to grow. It’s part of growing up as a person, you live and learn from your mistakes. I can see ahead of you, if this makes any sense at all. Looking back on my life, I can see ahead of you. Yes, you feel like you love her. yes, you feel like you cannot go on, this is life, you live and learn. Yes, you connected with her like no other, but you are young, you can connect with others, it just takes time, if ever in our “lifestyle”. It is hard to meet people, we try to meet people on the internet, in clubs, these are not good places to meet. You had a connection with her, yes, you are both lesbians, you are both growing into this world, that was the connection. Meant to be? no, it was not. I’m sorry, nothing was “meant to be”, one thing happens as a direct result of another. Without the internet, you would not have met, 1500 miles away, you would not have met. Your connection with her was the telephone. 2 years with the phone connected to your ear like a part of your body, talking to someone you have something in common with, that was your connection, the phone, at first it was extasy being together, but after awhile you realized (both of you) that you just were not meant to be together. I know you hurt, I’m sorry all I can do is listen, and it frustrates me yes, but I am still your friend. I can listen and give advice, but you won’t take it, because you haven’t lived yet. Don’t think I don’t feel your pain, that I haven’t been there, I have and I do.