even after 10 years….

 I still wake up and say happy birthday daniel… i wish i still had my best friend… not to sound like your dead, but you might as well be for me… i hope you are truly happy with you life and that you are well… and that you didn’t have to give up anything or anyone else… 

okay so enough of that…. i won’t go into everything again, it’s in one of my old journals, i think, if you feel like searching for it… anyway not much going on today, just sitting here with baby C…. he’s drinking his milk and almost out for a nap, waiting on baby A to get here, then H will be here at 12:30 and the brothers, J & C, around 1ish… i hope the weather stays nice so i can take them outside for some much needed fresh air so they can run their energy off… the only other thing i have planned as of right now is to make rice crispy treats with the kiddos once Chai gets home… 

i still haven’t wrote about this past weekend… it was a trip to say the least… i’ll devote a whole entry about it once i actually have the time… but i believe baby A is here now… 

okay so that wasn’t baby A yet…it was baby C’s mom picking him up…. so the bad news is i won’t have him this summer either, she is taking summer quarter off… which means i so need to get at least two kiddos in here… especially since i have to start paying on my student loans… baby C’s mom is going to post flyers for me around the college, hopefully someone will be looking for daycare for the summer… keep your fingers crossed… i’ll post a new entry on the weekend stuff… and what all happened… more later