almost famous….

lol just a movie title that popped into my mind! love that movie by the way

so here’s the update lol… not a whole lot going on as usual.. aside from working and taking care of Malachai.. but here are a few highlights of the interesting side of my life…

work is great.. i absolutely love it. i have a new team leader partner, because renee has moved on to a better job, more hours, same pay, but with benefits.. so yeah i’d have made the move too… her last day was friday… miss her though and so does the team… my new partner is pretty nice, but she’s also pretty quiet… so i missed work on last monday because kia had a docs appointment in lancaster… and i went along.. well he decided he wanted to play hookie, so i called and told them that he had testing that the doc wanted done.. which was only a half lie…doc wanted it done…just not until friday lol…

so i got back to work on tuesday and one of the kiddos, can’t say names because of our contract thingy but he’s had it rough.. dad in prision for the next four years.. has been there for a year already… and kiddo is missing his dad very much… before i got moved to the team they had another team leader… and she moved onto a bigger and better job… now renee left… and he asked me on tuesday if i was leaving him too… then he corrected himself and said i mean are you leaving the team too… that about broke my heart. i promised him that he wasn’t getting rid of me so easily … and he seemed okay for the day, but yanno… still worried.. by the end of the day he had shown me a pic of his dad… and on the back of it it said i love you love daddy… it was a pic of him in prision… but at least there seems to be some sort of contact there… so i’ve tried to give kiddo some ideas about what he can do when he starts missing his dad so much… like writing him a letter or drawing him a picture… and even told him that he could make a memory box… something he could give his dad when he gets out… put things in it that he really wants to share with him… and he seems to like that idea…

so yeah work is better than i expected it to be… kia has found his calling ..he’s majoring in special education now after working with some of the kids in his team… he’s even went into the class room for a day with them… i’m still planning on finishing my psych degree… just need to work on the finance part of it first… slowly making payments on the summer tuition… hoping to have it paid off before march.. that way i can get back into classes before i have to start making payments on my loans… yikes lol.. .yeah that’s not going to be fun.. but i’m going to start paying on those as well.. once i get back into classes…

so… i went and had thanksgiving with T and the kids… and her idiot.. yes he’s still there but she’s at that point where she’s ready to boot him out the door…but who knows how long it will take her… i’m not pushing her to do it… just being there to listen just like the last time… she really needs to take a break from guys…. at least the relationship/living together part… she just always seems to fall for the wrong type of guy… i don’t doubt that Ed loves her…he’s just an ass.. plain and simple… but that’s not the point of this little story lol… so we went and ate and had a great time… i really miss being around T and the kids… miss them like crazy.. and i got to see the rest of the "family" as well plus some new people… basically it was a grand time…

well i wrote in my last entry that i  had harlie & zozo that night …so we’ll skip over the night on to the next day …when T called me and asked if my ears had been burning all day… i was like no why lol.. .she said that i was talked about a bunch and she had a lot to tell me… so… she says do you remember my neighbor jeff… (he was at the dinner) i was like yeah, sorta… so she goes to tell me that he was all talking about me, saying that he’d like to get to know me better and that he thought i was an interesting person, and that i had this aura around me that day that just made him want to get to know me… so you’re wondering by now what the catch is right? well here it is….. he’s married.. with 3 kids….i met his wife and kids that day too…

apparently they have no intimate life with each other.. and he’d like to see me without her knowing in the beginning and then he’s going to divorce her… do i have naive written on my forehead? seriously… i don’t know why a guy would think that would work…although i know that some women don’t mind being with a married man…but i do.. i will not be the cause of a family being torn apart…especially for something like his situation..lack of intimacy…. seriously… that can be fixed without cheating on your wife… besides…whose to say that if he did divorce her after we got to know each other… and he and i ended up married… (big if) that he wouldn’t turn around and do the same thing to me for any other reason he could think of… so yeah i told T, which she knew what i’d say… that i was flattered… but i couldn’t do that to a family…

on the bright side to the whole thing… he is cute…. so at least i know i’m not totally in left field when it comes to men… just wish it was an attractive man who wasn’t married when he decided he’d like to get to know me lol… and his kids are great… but yeah i did the right thing… because i’ve been there before… the one that was cheated on… not going to do that to someone else…

let’s see what else has been going on in my part of the world…..

kia and i just put up most of the outside decorations for christmas… we had a blast doing it until dad decided to take over… but we’ve got to finish that tomorrow… chai doesn’t have school so she has ally staying over tonight… she stayed there last night after we went and watched tangled… that movie is great… i don’t think i’ve laughed that hard in a while… the best part was that mandy & ben brought the girls to it too…and we ended up sitting in front of them… zozo laughed so hard… it was too cute…and at this one part of the movie, the little girl sitting next to me say "ah he’s gonna kiss her" and the theater was all quite at the time…so everyone laughed at how adorable she was… chai enjoyed the movie a lot…

earlier yesterday we had mandy’s baby shower… i made the cake for it and made her a blankie for the baby… they’ve decided on her name.. Addyson Grace… Addy for short… she is due in february …but they think she’ll be early… she’s getting so big now… but we’ll see …

well that’s about it in my boring life lol… i know it’s not really boring, but sometimes it seems that way.. we’ve got christmas just around the corner and i can’t wait… most of my shopping is done…just need to pick up the new tv for chai’s room… and something for mom and dad from chai.. mom got me an e-reader… i can’t wait to use it lol… that way i can take most of my library with me where ever i go… that’s the only thing i asked for …so if she’s gotten me ne thing else i don’t know about it lol… the only reason i know about the e-reader is because we used my borderbucks on it.

..so ended up getting it $15 cheaper… plus it was already on sale… so woo hoo!  everything is wrapped..except for kia’s clothes… got to get more boxes for that… but those won’t take so long…

we are getting the christmas tree this weekend once we all get paid…. and then we’ll have everything in the house up… most of that mom did tonight while kia and i did the outside… i guess i’ve got to give dad some credit too cause he helped… just had to mumble things under his breath while he was helping…or telling kia that he was doing something wrong… the usual there…he actually said he didn’t see the point in decorating… that christmas would come with or without lights…. he’s being such a scrooge… and kia is more into christmas this year…he’s even went and spent his own money on a few presents for chai and harlie…and mom… i told him he didn’t have to get me ne thing but he went online and found some e-books for me… and has the extra sd card so i’ll have more memory for my e-reader… i’ve got to get him something still… but i don’t know what i’m going to get him… maybe a gift certificate to the pet store… he wants a lizard or something now to go along with his fish tank… so who knows i’ll decided come payday lol…

so once all the lights are up i’ll take some pics tomorrow night and post on here…. but i am out of things to write about at the moment…life is actually pretty peachy for me… no sense in complaining about school… i will finish when i can… and well the lack of love life isn’t as bad as it seems… lol just wishing for someone who isn’t married to be interested in me… more on that as it develops… i’ve got to go down to T’s here in a few days…. so we’ll see what if ne thing is said….

love you all…

<3 Cole