not what i expected

so i finally told mom about my financial aid being gone… i didn’t tell her that i would have had it for this semester if i wouldn’t have failed the anthropology class.. but just skipped to the being at my maxium loan amounts.. .which is true for fall semester… so really it’s still a lie, but a small one at that… and she was actually alright about it.. more worried about how i’m going to finish school and all… well i told her that once this job starts with jess i’ll be able to pay for one class a semester, which will put me back almost two years.. but eventuallly i figure i’ll be able to afford more than one class a semester… so it’s not all lost… i am taking the anthropology next semester.. i should be able to make payments on it since the job with jess will be starting in september, october at the latest… i told her i’d go to mcdonalds or somewhere here in town and get a job until then, but she said that would be pointless because i’d be spending most the money on a babysitter… so it really wouldn’t help…

she said not to tell his royal psychotic ass because he’ll start yelling about me moving out again.. so that is a good sign, because i seriously thought she would want me and chai to move since i wouldn’t have the overage check… so for now things are kinda okay around here.. i mean psycho is still very much psycho.. and kia is still up in the air about the chemo.. we find out tomorrow if his white count is back up… and chai is finally entertaining herself.. not complaining about having no one to play with lol… she had ally over saturday to swim and spend the night.. then we went to the movies last night to see toy story 3.. (was awesome) and today she kinda whined around for a bit about being bored… so i had her help me clean up her room while i put her clothes away… and now she’s stilling in front of her doll house and singing… i’m assuming the barbies are having a talent contest … lol how cute she is when she’s using her imagination…

so what i have to do today… well i’m going to get a head start on the anthropology class.. since i still have all the assignment downloads saved… and i have to get my clothes put away… it’s crazy disorganized again in here.. i do real good for a few weeks at keeping it straightened up… then slowly things get thrown in my room.. mom thinks i have room for everything in here lol… so yeah my goal is to get it done and keep it straightened up.. i need to find another place for the karoke machine… maybe in my closet… lol i won’t bore you with the details…

after that i’m going to try to find a spot for the exercise bike in my room… kia said he couldn’t hear me on it… which i was self conscious about… he said that he’d help me out on fitness training if i wanted him too.. .so i’m going to have him go over the spark videos with me and pick the best workouts and do them… plus the exercise bike.. then hopefully by the time he’s done with chemo i’ll be able to run with him in the evenings.. it would really be nice… so that is another goal i guess lol…getting back in shape… (which i know it’s been one of those on going lifetime goals) i even asked the doc about diets and weight loss the other day.. .which he gave me some pointers that i’m definatly going to follow… so that’s one step closer to my goal… because i actually talked to someone about it…

anyway i’m going to get off here and get these clothes put away.. more later

<3 Cole