….update…

so it’s been a week or so… since i’ve written last and well things are up and down… dad is back home… not that i’ve seen any improvement… they kept him for a week… so yeah not much sleep for me.. on top of that kia is @ the hospital for chemo and mom is staying with him all week.. so it’s me, chai & the nutcase here at the house… oh joy.. and he keeps talking to me about stupid shit that frankly i don’t care about… but i put on a smiley face, and pretend to think its interesting…

school well that’s a whole other issue… still haven’t told mom about the money… but i’m not telling her i lost it because of grades when i do… i know why lie, well frankly i don’t feel like getting my head ripped off… plus its a white lie… i’m telling her i’m out of financial aid, that i’ve used all my quarters of availability.. which is true.. this would have been the last semester i would have received aid.. so now i’ve just got to wait until this week is over and everything here is smooth-like.. and sit her down with no interruptions and explain.. she’s not going to understand at all… she doesn’t understand why kia has to go on her income since he’s 18 (something that a lot of people wonder) for financial aid… seriously the government needs to figure this out some how.. anyway .. back to mom.. she’ll yell, then scream, then cry and ask what we are going to do for money… well mother if you would quit spending $ on your credit cards like i keep telling ya, then we’d have extra cash in the bank each month… not that i’ll tell her that… she’ll just panic… and hopefully jess calls me before i have to break the news to her… really that would help…

once this job starts, money really won’t be an issue… except for she’ll go back to her same spending habits… it’s the reason they got into debt in the first place.. when dad got injured and didn’t work, they kept spending like they did with two incomes… mom is a compulsive shopper… it makes her feel good to spend money on everyone but her.. which is where i get it from too… but at least i try to be a bit frugal with my cash… well i was before i moved back in here… but yeah sorry this is just another ramble of things going through my mind…

i have a headache… i didn’t sleep well last night.. no wonder with  psychopath here… i probably won’t sleep much tonight either… but i’m doubting he’ll be doing anything insane tonight since chai has a friend over… but just incase i won’t sleep… just like last night… until i finally hear him go to his room to sleep… and then i sleep till chai wakes me up.. and do it all over again… oy vey (assuming i used that right lol)

so what am i going to do about school… well i’m finishing this semester.. owing the school mad amounts of tuition… which i will start to pay on once i get this dratted job…and it’s not jess who’s draggin her feet…it’s the county… go figure… they need childcare providers… but they can’t answer a few simple questions to tell us what all we have to do for jess to hire me in under type b certification… i did get recertified for cpr & first aid… and guess what was a cake walk… like not even an hour for the class.. was way better than the whole thing with hocking taking a whole quarter to finish it…

kia & chemo… well he had his second round today.. and he texted me said he was okay after it… even ordered pizza for dinner lol… so he’s got 9 weeks of this crap… i know it’s not crap, but wish he didnt have to go through it… his buddies stopped up to see him today… told him when he starts loosin his hair cause of the chemo… that they are shaving their heads for him… such good guys… his g/f is at the hospital tonight too… her family leaves for vacation on thursday, so her parents let her stay overnight with him & mom… she’s going to his chemo session with him tomorrow… and then she’ll go home after that… i think tomorrow chai is going to make him a get better soon card….

we’re supposed to have a ball game but it’s stormin like crazy here… monday’s was cancelled because we got down there and a storm came out of no where… well actually it came from lancaster… mom had called to say she figured chai wouldn’t have her game… but yeah so maybe we’ll have it tomorrow.. maybe not…

and i’m into rambling mode, don’t really know what to talk about because i believe i got everything out of my head that was rolling around up in there… it still hurts though… ick!

one more thing… i had thought about setting up a website and doing tarot readings… maybe charging $5 for a past, present, future… $10 for a full spread… don’t know just popped into my head the other night… wonder if it would make any money in this economy.. i mean i saw people on ebay doing it and charging like $15-20 for it…

anyway let me know what you think… about any of it lol… but seriously, think it would make some cash?

more later

<3 Cole