8/29/06

so i’m sitting here supposed to be doing my research paper for my westren civilization and culture class, and i just can’t bring myself to do it, or any of my school work…it’s too hot, i know i’ll get it done, but yanno, just not right now….

malachai is in the front room watching a video, it’s one of those cuddlie buddie tapes…she loves ’em….she’s so adorable sitting there on the couch, currled up with her favoirte blankie, the one she absolutly can not sleep without…..she calls it D….well now she’s calling it DD…..i don’t know where she got the name for it, but since she first started talking she called it D…..ne way, she’s sitting there, watching the video, and she’s singing the songs that are on it….so so cute…she is so verbal for her age, her peditrician said that she is very advanced for 2, which is a good thing….i just ho;pe that she doesn’t loose that once she gets into school….but i’ve got 3 more years to think about that…..

the whole sister subject is now closed, i’m sick of it effecting my life, so i told her last night that i didn’t care what she did, or what she had to say about her on again,off again bf….that she needed to keep the drama outta my house…..i’ve reached that point to where i just don’t give a d*** about what she does ne more….as long as harlie is taken care of…..

school, it’s going good, just a bit tired of it already…i’m starting to wonder if it was a good idea to attened summer quarter…i mean it was, i got a lot of stuff done….but i kinda missed out on the summer fun…..beach, cookouts, and all that jazz

so here goes another entry…like 3 or 4 this week…i’m getting good 😛

it was suggested that i weight the pros and cons about seeing arron again…he called from the base he’s stationed at and told me that he wants to take me to see the wickerman when he comes home on leave….well the cons would be that i still have feelings for him and that would just screw with my life, but it’s not like he isn’t already in my head….so that wouldn’t be so bad…but on the pros side, he will be deployed for 2 years after his leave is up….and i won’t get to see him, or really even talk to him…maybe letters, but we’re both not the type to keep up on letters…i mean i can’t even keep up on my diary…. so i guess i just made up my mind, i will go to the movies with him….but i will keep my guard up, because he has a way of effecting me to where i let it down, yet i really don’t know i do until it’s too late…..

well the sister is home, note the excitement..but i’ll write  more later

*luv*

cole