Faked orgasm! Oh my!

 Well it wasnt like I meant to, but thats how the evening rolled!

Frankly this was the first time ever did that,  why would a guy do it?  well let me explain…

3 days away from spouse starting last Friday…so what to do?  Well I said before she left, I am getting a tattoo…i really meant it.  she didn;t believe me….so after a mostly really busy day on Saturday one of the designers I work with (GO SCOUT!  YOUR MY FAVORITE WINGMAN!) after giving her a hand with her brand new washer dryer (stacking system son of a bitch!) up two flights of stairs and connections I asked her about her friend who has lots of tattoos where he goes…

We ended up at a tattoo parlor on Ponce de Leon late afternoon..I had 3 that I wanted done, all in Latin, one under my wedding band and 2 under my watch band…and arguing with the artitst who insisted what I wanted done wouldnt fit…

Ended up to a partial agreement..So he said you got 30 mins get lost I will call you..we shot to a bar around the corner and I had a glass (i mean a drinking water glass) of JW Black label she had a stout beer…wtf half-pint…that beer is bigger than you!  You go girl! The phone rings, check paid and off I go…

.so inscribed on my wrist in Times New Roman size 25 font "+ ABYSSVS ABYSSVM INVOCAT +"  Which loosely translates as "deep calls to deep"  which means so much more (as latin always can) you can interpret it any way you want…depending on how deep you choose to go!

So Wife’s reaciton was less than sweet to the reality that I actually did it…and so I asked her to dinner with me tonight…a few drinks, an explanation of reason that I did it,  about being true to myself is not a betrayal of her…that either I be me or go crazy trying to conform…and a reaffirmation that I am still as marginally sane as I was last week…two drinks later we head home except I need to stop at my office and grab my comp. for the road trip tomorrow…she comes inside with me…my office is trashed especially the workshop in back cause I just spent the last 2 days straight building custom headphones (go google ‘thunderpants headphones") working on my son’s highschool project and so I cranked up my pandora and Adele comes on and next thing I know we are making out on the desk in the shop…in the dark…totally fun…in all my life I have never had sex at work…

She arrives at the station in like 2 mins and you know what…that was enough that she was satisfied…it wasn’t that I was lazy…it was just that,  her being fulfilled was enough for me…I faked it…and felt guilty for almost ummm lets see 10 seconds maybe?  All these years I have heard about women faking it and was like "what nasty frigid bitches!" or thought to myself "what a cunt"  and for me, well now I get it…to me it was just that what I wanted (which would have taken another 10 minutes as it happens with age that things take longer) just wasn’t really important…Kind of strange new perspective really…Her pleasure and contentment was enough…enough that my pleasure wasnt worth a damn thing…and no regrets of bad feelings about it…so ladies who have done this…i think I have an inkling of the process…or maybe i dont have a clue but that is what is running through my head at the moment

 

I tried to stop on the way home so we could kiss and damn police cruiser stopped that before it even started and then a song came on…

Jimmy Eat World "here you me"  which is a song that I forever associate with her Dad passing away this past summer..  It was the song I heard when I went during one of my visits when I was taking care of him at the hospital…I recorded this song on the life story interview I recorded with him about a year ago and shared with the family at the funeral.

anyways two things left to get put on my body:

"Dum Spiro Spero"

and 

"Visum Amor Virtus"  this last I think I will have put around my left ankle with a broken shackle below it.

 

Thats all for now…

This blog will be ending soon and I have started a new blog and am currently trying it out to work on the bugs…if it proves successful then I will post a link and invites for all!

With warmest feelings for the people here I know personally..

Your,

-Beauty for Ashes