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Thank you for your note. I love you <3 Promise.

hey honey! sorry i havent been around lately. my shift at work has me all bent outta shape! but only 2 more weeks at that fucking hell hole!just 2! wooo!i start work at 1430(230 in the afternoon) and get off at 2300(11 pm) so when i come home im ready for bed immediately. rarely will i get online when i get home.since my shift started july 1st ive been only twice since i came home after work

so when i wake up the next morning its around 9 or 10, and if i dont have mandatory overtime to work(which is over time my company MAKES me work) before my regular shift i have errands to run or im trying to work out. what that means is im TRYING to work out without passing out or gettin sick. my migraines have gotten so bad if i get too hot or if i over exert myself i get to the point to where i

pass out bc of the pain. so really since march (bc thats when these headaches started) ive worked out maybe 5 times. thats not helping my body at all. my weight is going down (the number) but my shape isnt changing at all. im still in the same size clothes.as i was when school got out. but ive lost X amount of lbs. the most working out i can are arms, bc it doesnt hurt my head. after a certain

amount of sit ups ill get dizzy my head will hurt and ill pass out or throw up. same when i go walking or jogging. or either ill just get a headache and the dizziness and throwing up will come about. so my family physician told me to stop taking my wellbutrin.bc i started taking that in march. thats when my headaches started. headaches are side effects of the medication. if the headaches dont stop

shes going to send me to a neurologist. other than that im ok. *shrugs*

1. ur mental health and ur physical health for that matter is none of the administrations business at ur school. as far as them being tipped off with any info all they can do is recommend u see someone and ask that u send in a doctor letter or something with a letter head saying u met those requirements for some kind of evaluation. what i went through this yr with my school threatening to require

therapy from the school counselor and if i didnt get it id be kicked out of campus housing. or if i had my own counselor(which i told them i had my own bc i saw the school shrink and she told me not to come back) they said if i failed any of my physicals, which they were going to require i take once a month, they could kick me out of housing and possibly expell me from school, i found out all of

cannot be done. its discrimination against those with disabilities and mental diseases are considered disabilities. ur school administration cant tell u that YOU HAVE TO HAVE COUNSELING bc they arent doctors they dont know what kind of problems need to be assessed and which do not. also ur shrink cant write a statement saying u dont need counseling hes bound by law to keep it general. example:

i saw john doe on such and such date at such and such time or he can say i have been seein john doe from this time til this time and he is capable of attending this event or this whatever.and thats all he can say. my job tried to pull that one over on me too. when they found out i was in the hospital last yr(when my parents called to tell them i wasnt gonna be at work) they asked why i was n the

my mom stupidly answered saying i was in the hospital out of state and they questioned the out of state part and mom said it was a psychiatric hospital for depression and shit. so when i tried to apply again this yr at the same company they wanted a report from the hospital i was at saying the days i was there and why i was there and my diagnoses. i said ill get what i can bc i dont have access 2

that so my shrink wrote them a letter(which that didnt come from the hospital)and it said kelsey was n baptist hospital n pensacola,fl from this day til this day.my company didnt like that they called my shrink my shrink said by law that is all i can say and if u decide to call the hospital u will get the same answer and she hung up.so basically ur school is full of it.dont worry bout it hunny!!!

anyway i digress…majorly! lol sorry for all the notes…all 50 million!

ahahahahahaha i already knew ur name. just from various noters and then i guess ppl who are on ur favs are also on my favs i guess i dunno will refer to u as lacie and im like who and they say ur diary name. but yea ive known ur name since like i added u! lol. too funny!

ryn: no that is not true. tell him about patient doctor confidentiality laws and being a minor doesnt waive those laws no matter what state ur in. ill verify that with my shrink. i have an appt with her next thurs. whens the next time see that fuck job?

the first thing my shrink said to me the first time i saw her was i just want u to know that anything u tell me does not leave this room. nothing in here will ever be recorded. by law if i ever disclose any info u tell me i could lose my license to practice…i was 14 the first time i saw my shrink. to this day when i get really upset i might cry and i say are u gonna tell anybody and she says no

the only time she could while i was underage and even now is if she feels i am going to harm myself. if she feels that im going to leave her office and harm myself(go to my dorm and cut myself or kill myself) she has the right to contact authorities (hospitals or the police) or if a parent or guardian came to a session with me and they were in the waiting room she could tell them she thinks im

suicidal AT THIS PARTICULAR MOMENT and i might try something and to watch out for me or that shes worried about my health and she wants to admit for like a 24 hr or 72 hr psych evaluation just to make sure i dont harm myself. if she doesnt feel i am endangering myself she, by law, cannot say ANYTHING to ANYONE not even to her colleagues…especially school administration. what state u live in?

ryn: honey, I really love you to, I wont forget you and I’ll be back soon. Take care of yourself precious xxxxxxxx

i would definitely give her a call! and ill always be here to answer any questions to the best of my ability. what state do u live in so when i ask my shrinkage maybe she can answer me with some better answers?

hey! thanks for the advice. last night was awesome. we just stayed up(way too late) we watched a few movies. we just talked for a while. he did kiss me. he said he felt bad since he was married but he couldnt help it bc he was really attracted to me. the apartment he rents out to ppl is actually a mile down the road from my house…weird huh? i guess thats why it was always convenient for him

to take me to and from work sometimes. *shrugs* i dunno. he is a really nice guy. i know hes not a felon or anything bc we run a nationwide background check on all our employees. hes been with this company for 10+ plus years. really respected man. true that doesnt mean anything with it comes to being psycho, but u cant always be afraid of every man u meet. nor can u be lax w/every man u meet

i actually think he and his wife are having trouble right now. bc they used to come to work together in the same vehicle. they dont anymore. they used to eat lunch together. they dont anymore. *shrugs* so i dont know. he is a really nice guy. ppl say age doesnt matter. it doesnt but then again when theyre that much older u got to wonder what theyre wanting. but he is honestly nice. but

ill keep my radars up!