One Year Ago…

 Not much has changed in my life over the last year.. Just found out who my TRUE friends are, and who ‘the actors’ are / were. It was one year ago that I thought I had feelings for a friend. One year ago that I took a drive to Ohio.. The story was basically this.
 
 Two years ago.. Over two years ago actually, there was a girl I met online who I started a friendship with.. This friendship really progressed. From sending notes back and forth to texting, to talking on the phone.. What started at two to three hour convos ended up at five and six hour convos. Twenty plus texts a day.. I literally had every intention of flying this girl and her four year old son to live with me, even though I had NEVER met her. Crazy much? But, I went with it.
 
 So, she was seeing a guy and they were struggling. She clearly wasn’t happy.. So I made the 9 or so hour drive to visit her.. Ended up meeting her, her adorable son, a couple of her friends, and her bf. Me, her, and her bf spent a coupla nights together chilling, watching movies, and eating pizza. When they were together, they seemed awesome. But she continued to tell me in private how badly they were struggling. He would ignore her. Not return her calls when she would want to see him, etc.
 
 So… long story short (too late, haha) the last night I was there we ALMOST ended up having sex.. I ended up pushing her down onto the air mattress and started gridning into her. A couple seconds later, she yelled, "WE can’t do this!" and said how tough it would be on me.. I quickly regained myself and apologized. She said it was okay, everything was going to be okay.
 
 Lies.
 
 I got in my car and made the drive back to PA.. A few weeks after she cheated on her bf, and then cheated on him again. Told pretty much everyone about it. Damn near bragged on it. Of course, she didn’t tell him. Like a week later, she emails me on Facebook and says she told her bf what happened with me and her.. What happened? NOTHING! But still.. she chose to tell him about that, and not the dudes she actually cheated on him with. It took me a coupla more months to grow a set of balls, but when I finally confronted her on it, she stopped talking to me. Just as well, honestly, since the whole friendship ended up being based on a lie.
 
 The start of it was… just about a year ago.
 
 This is (PART OF) the reason I no longer trust people so easily.