Idiot.

I’ve gone and put myself in the most fucked up position ever.

Why would you put yourself between the boy you love and his ex girlfriend.  You wouldn’t.

Now I’m going to lose him, my best friend and lover.

It wasn’t me, it was him.  I shouldn’t have let my guard down so bad.  Now i’m hurting so so bad.  My guard was always down with him though, even though I knew in the end I was going to end up hurt.  Here I am.

I’m just alone.  I’ve felt alone plenty of times before but not like this.  He was the only thing that kept me sane. 

I don’t know how I’m meant to walk away from that and stay sane.