My slutty past pt 3.

I got the guts to text Paul one night and went and picked him up from town. He was drunk and pinging off ecstasy.  He’d never done anything like that for the year that I had been with him.

Anyways we ended up having sex back at his place and then he told me it didn’t mean anything and I was crushed.

I managed to weasel my way back into his life via sex, until I was sneaking into his house most nights of the week.  It was all very exciting and the sex was amazing.  He was an ass to me for about 6 months I reckon.  He never talked about anything serious.  I knew he liked me or he wouldn’t do what he was doing.  For instance, he’d never say goodnight, he’d say c ya.  He’d always wait a minimum of 1 hour before he’d reply to my texts unless we were sexting.  Sometimes he’d get in a bad mood with me, and not talk to me for 3 days, which killed me but I was stubborn enough to ignore him until he text me first.  And he always did.

He used to screw me, then make me leave before his dad woke up. I used to sit outside his door while he distracted his dad so I could get in.  Do you know how hard that is when his hyper little dog LOVES me lol.  He used to ignore me out at the clubs on weekends, because hobart is so small that you can’t avoid anyone.  He used to throw girls in my face, even though I never seen him make out with any.

One night I teased him because one of his mates told me that he was throwing a girl in my face on purpose and he stopped talking to me for months.

I was his little sex puppet and I loved it.  We never ever had sex like that when we were together.  He used to pin me down on the bed, push my head hard into the pillow, pull my ass up high, yank on my hair and tell me to scream louder for him.  He’d come all over me and then he’d use my vibrator on me until I couldn’t take it anymore.  Then we’d sleep for an hour and I’d wake up to his fingers inside of me again and it all started all over again.

Eventually he let me stay there out in the open in front of his dad.  But he used to send me home on weekends so he could go party and be single.  I spat it and in the end he finally asked me out again. This was probably in the end of 2007ish?  I talked to Will occasionally but really had nothing to say to him. He used to get jealous of other guys, even though he had a gf he tried to tell me not to be with anyone else. I got a kick of out sneaking around with Paul, just to piss him off.

I don’t even remember the last time I slept with Will.  It was boring and usually I only did it to piss Paul off because he used to ignore me of a day most of the time.  Will usually was just messing with my head though.  Of coarse when he found out I was with Paul again he wanted me back instantly.  Well fuck you.  I dont really remember when I stopped talking to him either, but it definitely wasn’t soon enough.  I hate him for everything he did to me.

Will slept with everyone of my friends in my home town.  Bar Jade, my best friend.  He screwed Kate when I started talking to her again and then he turned us against each other, until we got together one night and worked out what he was doing.  He messed with my head and used to fuck around with me just to keep me strung along.  He’d come and see me, then leave the second he’d came.  He used me in everyway possible and he has tried to get me talking to him again but I will NEVER forgive him for how he treated me and I never want him back in my life again.

Paul and I had a pretty good relationship for about a year I reckon.  We didn’t really have that many dramas after I stopped talking to Will.  I lived with Paul and his dad and never ever got to see my family because Paul wouldn’t come with me.  I just accepted that though and things worked out pretty well.  Until we started fighting all the time and I started talking to Bren a lot more.

Our relationship couldn’t stand another boy in it again and we broke up over a dumb fight over nothing.  It actually happened over sms and it wasn’t ugly because both of us actually just realised that it was over.  I did sleep with Bren once while I was with Paul, about 3 days before we broke up.  But it was kinda horrible and I realised I was only doing it because of my failed relaitonship with Paul.

That’s why things have never worked out with Bren.  I don’t see him as someone I’ll end up with.  He’s just a good distraction from what’s really going on.  When I’ve had the chance of just him and I, I’ve never taken it, I’ve never wanted to.

But yes, Paul is now engaged to a girl with two boys and I’m 19 months into my relationship with Geard and i can’t say I ever want to be in a relationship with two boys at the same time ever again lol.

I haven’t talked to Paul in over a year.  That’s how I knew it was really over.  Because every other time we’ve done the whole "lets be friends" thing.  Which in reality was only my way of trying to eventually weasel my way back in with him.  But I never did that.  I was really not that sad over the whole relationship actually. I guess we’d just exhausted all options over three years and there was no way in the world we could ever work.

I was only young then, I loved the attention, and I clearly wasn’t ready for any kind of commitment!