Update & OD Name.

So I still didn’t really talk to him today, I did a little but not much.  I spend half the day trying to fix my pc. Until I finally killed it and it barred me from the net.  Ugh. So I’m in the family room, or the gym as my family call it, writing this.  I spent the rest of the day on the couch watching Austar, refusing to even acknowledge I own a pc.  It did lock me out completely which I managed to fix, so at the moment I’m transferring all my music, photos and games etc onto my portable hard drive and I’m getting the fucker wiped tomorrow.

I was sitting on the couch playing on my phone when I heard mum’s car pull up, I thought "finally!" as I was so bored and now had someone to annoy haha. She came in and I looked up to say hi but it was Geard not mum. I’d mistaken his v8 for hers.  He came over to "get some clothes".

He was so upset.  It honestly broke my heart to see him like that.  He’s so sorry and he’s so scared he’s going to lose me.  If he thinks he can control himself then I am willing to be with him.  I miss him. I am so lonely without him here.  And so BORED.  And I generally just don’t laugh as much when he’s not around.  He asked if we could have lunch or something tomorrow.  I told him maybe.  But I want to now I’ve had time to think about it.  I think he’s finally listened to what I’ve said.  Realised that I’m serious about leaving if he can’t stop himself.

Anyways the whole reason why I came on here was to write my second day out;

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your OpenDiary name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about OpenDiary and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Okay the meaning behind my OD name.

I had a TeenOpenDiary but I can’t remember what my name was then.  I changed it to PrincessPhreakz0r when I changed over to OD. I came back just to write about my boyfriend and his bestfriend, how I was sleeping with them both etc. One of them used to call me Princess and Phreakz0r was the others screen name (they were both nerds.) I realise now how mean that is, but I honestly didn’t realise what I was doing to them at the time, I was only having fun.

Anywho, Phreakz0r (Or Paul for you who remember back that far)  Saw the screen name on my history one day when I was in the shower and clicked on it to investigate. That was how he found out I was with his best friend.  That was a shit day.  Surprising though it wasn’t the end of us, not for a number of years.

I changed it to PrincessJadie I think after I had a break with Paul for 6 months when he refused to talk to me and I was still talking to Will (the best mate) He had a girlfriend but was still sleeping with me on the side. Yeah I know, I was screwed up.

I eventually got back with Paul officially and stopped talking to Will for a bit. I changed my diary to Para Siempre I think it was, which is spanish for always and forever and Paul sent that to me in a text one day.

I changed it to Light My Fire half because I’d broken up with Paul and half because I knew that he knew I had it and I knew he’d do anything he could to try and hack into it.  I changed my layout and the picture I used as my background was called "light my fire".  I didn’t really like that it was so common and I really still don’t.   But I don’t have anything else to change it to and I guess it’s kinda just my indentity here now.

So there you have it, and don’t be surprised if it changes again soon lol x x