You are my destiny, Jai ho!

Bit of random Pussycat Dolls action for you there in the title!

So once again it feels like forever since i’ve updated.  Things are actually going really well for me.

Things turned around when I read a certain ex favs rants about me.  I realised I’m so sick of people who think they know talking trash about me.  I decided I wasn’t taking anyone’s shit anymore and I took control.

I’m taking control first off by losing weight.  I started off by running 5k a night.  I’ve now upped that to between 5-7k.  It’s taking me under an hour to run 7k, but i’m getting faster.  I make sure I burn at least 400 cals a day but i’ve been trying for 500 the last week.  Julie and I are planning to run the City to Casino fun run next sunday morning, which is 7k.  She’s a bit sick at the moment though so that mightn’t happen but i’m very keen to do it.  The running has improved my asthma greatly and I was never able to run like I can now!

I’ve also helped my body by cutting down my calories.  I record everything in my food and exercise diary at calorieking.com.  I have no more than 1290 cals a day and I stick to it.  I’ve lost 2 kilos in 3 three weeks and i plan to keep that up until I’m happy enough with the shape of my body.  I was sick of the way it was, even though I was never fat as such.  But i’m doing something about it.  I’m losing my excess and i’m toning up.

Job wise i’m still looking for a new job for under 12 months until i can apply for the police force again.  I’m detirmined to get in and damn anyone who thinks I can’t.  Mark my words.  I’m planning to get out of retail for the rest of the period whilst i’m waiting to apply again so I can show them i’ve had more experience than just retail and that policing is still what i want to do.  I was told in my interview that it appeared that I was only looking for an outlet out of retail and policing was the easiest option at the time and I applied without thinking about it.  Brem and I are taking the tafe coarse on it when it comes out (next month or two.) And i will be able to blitz them with the fitness no worries this time.  I took everything they told me at the interview on board and I’m fixing all the issues they had with me that made them skeptical about letting me in.  This is what I want to do and they will be able to see that.

Having said that I’ve been in such a good mood lately I haven’t been hating work.  I’m usually very short with stupid customers, well most customers really but I’ve genuinely been working really hard with them lately and putting up with their crap without it bothering me like it usually would!  I’m a lot friendlier and I always work hard there when it comes to the store and what needs to be done so i’ve been getting a lot of praise at work and it makes the days go a lot faster!

Things with Geard and I are really good too =] I still can’t believe I’m so lucky to have a guy as special as him.  It was our two months a couple of days ago.  Although unofficially i’ve been seeing him for five months now.. WOW!  He’s applying to get into the fire service at the moment.  It’s his second go around, he was too young the first time he went.  It’s something he’s always wanted to do and I really really hope he gets through.  Problem is it’s so popular, hundreds apply and only 15 actually get a job.  He was told that they’re all up north this time around too, so if he gets one of the spots he could be moving away which would be interesting.  But i’m not worried about that just too soon!

In summary I’m just really happy with life at the moment =]

Tomorrow I’m spending the day with Julie.  We’re going rollerblading (we’re so 80’s LoL) then we’re going to get our hair cut and probably shopping knowing us two.  Then Julie’s going to a housewarming party that night and Bren and I are going to get wasted and go have some fun at isobarrr yay then Julie’ll probably come have a dance with us later =]  Geard’s got Ella (his daughter) this weekend so he’s having a quiet one. 

I’m not going to lie.. She makes me nervous!!!!  I’ve never really been around kids for long periods of time so I don’t really know how to act around her.  I know this will only change with time but I find it awkward with his family there too.. I dunno.. I just get nervous because I don’t want them to think anything bad of me!  I think about these things too much lol!  None of my friends have kids!!!!

I’m going to try and not be so slack and note you all very soon =]  Take careeee