We broke up.

He doesn’t want to be in a relationship anymore, it wasn’t me but he needed to be by himself for a while.

As we spent our last night together last night holding each other as close as we could get, the tears ran down my eyes and i wished with my entire being that this wasn’t happening and i prayed to God to bring him back to me.  I guess it’s really selfish of me since i really don’t have a relationship with God but i didn’t know what else to do.

I’m trying my hardest to be strong right now but tears are running down my face without my consent.  i don’t know how to fix this and i know only time can make this better but i don’t want to go through this again.

I’m absolutely devastated.

I should be greatful, it ended on good terms and he still wants to talk as much as ever and still wants to catch up.  But he can leave for another job anytime after August and i’m terrified he’ll move and i’ll lose him forever.

Please let me fix this.

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June 25, 2008

Oh ::Hugs:: How could he drop you like that?! I’m so angry for you because I know right now you are just hurt…::Hugs:: In time, it will get better. ::Hugs::Hugs::Hugs::

you shouldn’t have given him the satisfaction of one more night. =/ Sounds like he wants to be with other people… seriously. There’s a really good book you should read, it will make you feel better. It’s by the creators of sex in the city and it’s called he’s just not that into you. Helped me out with an old break up ^_^

June 25, 2008

I’m sorry angel, I hope you feel better soon. xx

June 25, 2008

he’ll come back running

June 25, 2008

I hope you get on top of things soon.

June 26, 2008

*hugs* Things will work out for the best…whether that is with or without him, time will tell.

sometimes the hardest part is being in “good terms and he still wants to talk as much as ever and still wants to catch up” – my advice is to cut all contact completely, until you feel nothing for him. Otherwise it’s just going to keep hurting, over and over, and you won’t heal xx

I am sorry. You will feel better over time.,…the heart does mend, I promise.

June 26, 2008

i think you need to move on from him…. but its a broken record

June 28, 2008

I know I haven’t written in a while, but *hug* x

July 1, 2008

Oh hunni…::HUGS::…i don’t even know what to say…x x

July 17, 2008

ryn: nope, jiggling I’ve tried. pulling with all my might from one side to the other is the only thing that seems to work.