Fuck you.

For Jackie

Friday, May 09, 2008

"Jackie won’t be publishing anymore entries. I dont know if this is temporary or permenant.

I do know she wont want to read her faves after what I’ve just read. It’s amazing how people who don’t know her can label her and judge her. It’s also amazing people who are close to her still do not understand how someone with her condition thinks, and how their suicidal mindset works. Alot of what her ‘friends’ have said have just hurt her more and fueled on that negative part of Jackie, even if they think it is helping her or trying to get her to ‘shake it off.’ Being angry at her is supposed to help is it? Calling her more negative names is also helping, yes? You do not think she has enough of that in her head right now? It makes me angry as a friend of her’s to read or know of this. Good job on supporting her.. not. I suggest you google info about correct ways to handle people who are extremley mentally ill and/or suicidal. The majority of response she has gotten, mostly UNWANTED, has only contributed to the "mental illness Jackie"…

She isn’t safe, and I don’t know if I will be able to write in this again. And that’s all I can say right now."

You want me fucking gone.  I’m gone.  So sick of putting my whole life into someone who hates me.  Thanks to whoever wrote this, that’s all i have to say.

According to Marcella and Soph she is better.  So fine.  I tried.  I’m playing it her way.  I’ll delete her out of my life.  I can stop "fueling her" and fuck off on her forever.  You win.