Take it back a bit!

Okay so Friday i was going on about the whole "space" thing and Paul and i were fighting etc etc etc.. Paul was drinking which always makes him fire up at me and i was biting back cause i was hurt and uugh it was an ugly night. 
On top of that, NIck’s saying all these things to me that i want Paul to be saying to me and it’s pissing me off more than Paul’s not being there for me and out drinking etc.  So then i’m saying things to Paul like "Fine, i’ll go find someone who does care"

I was talking about it to Nick, because he’s been through the whole situation with his ex Lani.  But then out of no where he starts telling me how awesome i am, and faithful, and beautiful and why can’t he have a girl like me?  He said this about three or four times but i chose to ignore it.  Then because i was ignoring it he told me he liked me from the first night we met, when he was with Molly, he told me to break up with Paul and be with him, that Paul was treating me like shit and he’d never do that to me and he could offer me so much more than Paul ever could, and pretty much bagging the shit out of Paul and making himself sound awesome.

I don’t appreciate you saying that shit about my boy.  I don’t care if we are disfunctional and i was upset at the time because of him.. I just wanted to talk about it.. I didn’t ask him to tell me Paul was satan.  You’re still not allowed to say that about my boy!  This rule has sidenotes though.. Like it doesn’t apply to Jackie lol cause she knows the whole situation and she’d tell me whether i wanted to hear it or not!

Anyways that freaked me out a lot and i stopped talking to him cause that really was taking it too far and had totally turned me off him all together (as a person)  I fell asleep with my phone in my hand, arguing with Paul over text.  I woke up at 6AM lying on my phone, i had three texts from Paul, pretty much saying that fine, if that’s how i wanted it, it was over, and i could go be with Nick for all he cared.  I wrote back and said Nick’s got nothing to do with it and is that really what you want?

Didn’t hear from him until later, he said it wasn’t what he wanted.  He clearly wrote that when he was drunk, IMO anyway.  I went out to lunch with Skoot which was awesome and i got a text from him asking if we could just forget the whole thing so that was over for that night.  I hung with skoot for the rest of that night.. We went and saw a movie and hung out with her housemates, she lives with three guys and they’re all SO HOT.. One’s her bro though and he’s like my brother so that just doesn’t happen lol.

Sunday i thought i could see Paul since we’d be fighting etc.. But no, he was watching TARGA (Car racing down in tassie) like 10 mins from house and didn’t think to invite me, so that was nice, i spent the whole day moping and being upset.. When Paul realised how upset i was he asked me to stay with him, which i did.

That was last night.. Things are okay now, we had sex last night which is always nice, don’t think i wrote it here but it had been hurting heaps for me but that’s totally gone now.. I think it was a mental thing =

I’m at home now.. He goes to Melbourne for a few nights on Friday night, he just asked me to stay the week down there with him until he leaves.. I don’t want him to leave =( I’m so whipped.. When it comes down to it though.. I don’t really hang out with a lot of people, so i don’t feel lonely with him around =)