Come to bitch

I’m sick.. Like really sick.. Actually i’m a lot better now, it’s been the first time in two days i’ve been able to sit up though..

When i’m sick i’m a major sook.. And i wanted Paul cause i felt terrible and i just wanted a cuddle.  But Paul and i are "taking space" so that wasn’t going to happen.  This is Paul’s idea of fixing our relationship, taking time a part from each other will stop us fighting.. Right.  I just feel rejected.  He reckons it’s just space, nothing else, nothing changes.  Once again; right.

I do not ever remember being this sick and i really just wanted Paul.. But he’s not really talked to me much.  God even Nick offered to come over and look after me.. Shouldn’t my BOYFRIEND be doing that? Or whatever the fuck he is.. Point is i was fairly cut that he went out drinking tonight.  Meh.  I should be used to this by now

Nick’s been helping heaps with the Paul thing.. Cheering me up and distracting me from everything.. He’s also talked me out of being used by Molly all the time, he’s told me what she’s said about me and i knew what she was like but i dunno.. I just don’t want anything to do with those kind of people.. You should either be friends with someone and mean it, or nothing!

I’m going to lunch with Skoot tomorrow so that’ll be good to catch up with her.. We’re also planning to go get massages which at this point would be SO good with every muscle in my body aching!!

Anyways.. That’s enough bitching.. Trying not to put too much thought into the Paul thing or i really will start ranting

**EDIT** He’s made me cry for the last time.. If i do not hear from him tomorrow at all then i am going to hang out with Nick.. Not to hook up, but to have a mate.  I’m not altering my life for a fucking guy that gives me back NOTHING.  I’m so fucking upset with him right now.