I will update…..eventually

I finally talked with Manny. I’m not sure if anything was really resolved, but we kind of had it out. I ended up driving Wednesday night and he came along with me. We were able to talk between all the pick-ups and drop-offs, but we couldn’t excatly talk while the kids were in the van. We actually ended up sitting on the back of the pick-up talking for over an hour.

I really wanted to write about it all, but I’m really tired and sick. I worked Saturday (a double even though I wasn’t supposed to). I worked Sunday in the evening, but it was slow and I was able to hang out with Phil and Tia. I worked Monday doing linen, even though I wasn’t supposed to. I spent Tuesday getting stuff done with Mom and watching Fast Food Nation with LeeAndra. I worked a double Wednesday, even though I wasn’t supposed to. The evening shift was when Manny rode along, then worked Thursday morning. I took a nap in the afternoon because my father and I left for Ohio about 10pm. My dad drove the first shift through most of PA and I took the second shift. We got to Berea about 5am and saw 19 trains in three hours, sleeping every once in a while. Then we headed towards the family reunion resort place. Somewhere in all that, I caught a cold and now my head is stuffed up beyond belief and I’m plain old tired. Everything that happened between Manny and I hasn’t really settled yet. I’ve been trying to think about but not think about it. Then I also heard from Mike on Thursday afternoon. He left Friday morning to go back on the ship he just got off. It was another interesting conversation coming off the conversation with Manny. And an interesting conversation with Phil. I just really want to sleep and not be sick anymore. Seriously, I need some space and time to figure out my issues. I’ve spent all summer trying to block out the accident and the death of my grandfather and everything else that has happened. I just want to have a moment to try and work through everything without being attacked by one of my cousins or my mother or whoever. I also really don’t want to be sick anymore. I saw Jenny the other day and she said that she wanted to talk about the accident some more. She said there are some things she wanted to ask about concerning the accident. So that should be interesting.

Yeah….It’s time for me to go to bed.