If I forgot to eat

Things are weird at the moment. I don’t know if I’m happy or sad, content or annoyed, depressed or manic. I’m just being or something. I feel like I’ve been running so long I’ve forgotten to breath or something. I have a million things to do and only half a million hours in the day. But somehow I’m going to bed with just about everything done. So how does that work? I’m really not completely sure. But somehow it works.

I miss home

It started snowing again today. Yes, I said again. Winter weather advisory. Where the hell did autumn go? It was summer. Short skirts, tank-top summer. Then it was snowing! It smelled like autumn at home this weekend. The leaves had all fallen from the trees and sat 2 inches deep on my driveway. Ever thought of the smell of autumn? The smell of dry, dead leaves and cold in the air can’t be described. If I could, I’d bottle that smell and keep it forever. We don’t have that smell here. We have Indian summer days then snow days.

I am excited about the snow though!

I just got approval to add on a psychology minor. I’m so excited about it. I’ve got to take 4 classes before I graduate and I’ll have my psych minor. I can even take more than 4 classes, but one step at a time here. I was walking around on Wednesday bouncing off the walls. Its going to be so good for me to do something besides music. Not that I don’t love my music, but I’ve never been a single-track minded kind-of-person. I need things of varying topics to keep me entertained. Or at least sane. I’ve always thought that if I didn’t go into music, I’d go into social work or psychology of some kind. I still might. Course I can’t tell my parents that. They’d flip. But this is a way for me to keep that door open for me.

Anyways, I’m going to try to start updating more often cause I don’t feel like I write enough. I joined NoJoMo, so we’ll see how that goes!

If, I expected love, when first we kissed, blame it on my youth
If only just for you, I did exist, blame it on my youth
I believed in everything
Like a child of three
You meant more than anything
You meant all the world to me

If, you were on my mind, all night and day, blame it on my youth
If, I forgot to eat, and sleep and pray, blame it on my youth
If I cried a little bit, when first I learned the truth
Don’t blame it on my heart, blame it on my youth

Blame It On My Youth ~ Jamie Cullum