as soon as you awaken

Life sucks. It is the nature of the beast, so to speak, but it does. My only comfort in life and in death is that Jesus is the Christ, the Risen Lord. He’s my only guarantee. I don’t put faith in people because I know in the end they will let me down. Now that doesn’t mean I don’t trust my friends, but there is a limit. I trust them as a sinful human being. As a friend who messes up sometimes. As a friend who isn’t perfect. I can live with that. It is why it is easy for me to forgive them when they screw up. Its in their nature. Not to say I won’t hold them accountable, but I will forgive.

When Nathan comes to me, wanting to know how he can completly trust his girlfriend, I have no answer for him. I tell him its always a risk, trusting someone. Its a leap of faith. He tells me he needs a guarantee before he jumps. But with a guarantee its not a leap of faith. Its a leap of I know whats going to happen. It requires no faith.

How can I have this outlook and be bipolar? Cause depression meses with your mind. It doesn’t make sense and its irrational. When I can honestly say, “Eh, life sucks sometimes and right now, it does,” doesn’t mean I’m depressed. It means I’m realistic. Sometimes things happen that make us sad or upset. And I’ve learned thats ok. Being sad is what makes us able to be happy. What?! If you’ve never been sad, if you’ve never felt pain – you can not understand happy or joy. I’m not a Taoist, but they are onto something with yin and yang. Without one, you can not have the other. So life sucks sometimes. Yeah, but thats what makes the good moments so good.

Sittin’ here I’m dwellin’ on the things that I keep holding on to yesterday
Ties are broken ties are made I try so hard to find my way around this crazy place
Nobody seems to understand me
Till you came along and told me this

All will be forgotten
Every tear you’ve cried
As soon as you awaken
To what’s right in front of your eyes
Standing by your side

Sittin’ here I’m thinkin’ bout the weather and the countryside around me
Simple little things like these are good to keep my silly mind from wondering
I feel the summer breeze wash over me
Oh I know the laughter know the love and
Maybe I’ve just got enough to give

All will be forgotten
Every tear you’ve cried
As soon as you awaken
To what’s right in front of your eyes
Standing by your side

The road is long before me now
The memories beg me to stay
But lonely is born from pride I’ve found
So I’ll reach out

All will be forgotten
Every tear you’ve cried
As soon as you awaken
To what’s right in front of your eyes
Standing by your side

Sittin’ here I’m dwellin’ on the things that I keep holding on to yesterday

All Will Be Forgotten ~ Holly Brook