If I Could

If I could I would write you a letter
Telling you how you’ve made me feel
But this language doesn’t hold the words
It can’t correctly portray the thoughts
Swirling around in my head
Like the sign on a porn shop
Blinking on and off in the dark
But these feelings can’t be pushed
The thoughts can’t be put down on paper
In black and white for you to see
I can’t scream them into my phone
Drunk and crying in the rain
I can’t say anything anymore
The feelings are suffocating me
So I’ll step up to the wall
And climb over the edge

If I could I would leave you a note
Left on the dining room table to find
But this language doesn’t hold the words
It can’t fucking tell you what I need
And so I’m flying away