such a juvenile fancy

I miss him. And this is really driving me absolutly crazy how much I miss him. And that makes me wonder how I feel about him. I wouldn’t say that I love him. But I would say I love waking up in bed next to him. I love that feeling I get in the pit of my stomach when the phone rings his tones. I love the way his voice sounds on the phone when we haven’t talked in a while and he misses me. I want to curl up in bed next to him right now, but I can’t. He’s not here. I want to call him and tell him to come home within the next 10 days because I can wake up next to him. I want to be able to see him and talk to him. I want to go out and play pool with him or drag him to a concert. I want him to meet my friends and hang out with them. I want us to go North and have pizza and build a fire. I want to sit outside by that fire and talk about nothing and everything.

I don’t think I’m in love with him. I don’t think I even love him. But I really love the way he makes me feel and the anticipation I’m getting waiting for him to come home. He texted me while I was in PA at the airport. “Led Zepplin Rolling Stones AC DC Pink Floyd Where am I?” He had gone to TX with a bunch of friends to see their cover band concert. I had already told him before I wanted to go. So I texted him back. “I already told you I was jealous I’m stuck in PA.”
His reply: “Big smile from me.”
My reply: “Yah yah big kiss from me.”
His reply: “I’ll hold you to that.”
My reply: “Well, the sooner you came home…”

There wasn’t an answer after that because I had to get on the plane. And I haven’t talked to him since then. But did I mention I want him to be home NOW? I miss him like crazy and I want to hang out with him. I’d make dinner and play housewife with him. I just want him here.

And I just hope this doesn’t mean I’m falling in love. I’m not planning on it.

And for those still wondering, I’m still manic. Taking sleeping pills to get to sleep at night. I’m waiting for them to kick in so I can go to sleep.

Falling in Love with Love is falling for make-believe!
Falling in Love with Love is playing the fool!
Caring too much is such a juvenile fancy!
Learning to trust is just for children in school.

I fell in Love with Love one night when the moon was full
I was unwise with eyes unable to see!
I fell in Love with Love with love ever-lasting.
But Love fell out, with me!!

Falling in Love with Love ~ Bernadette Peters

Bellagirl

June 27, 2005

Aww. I think that’s sweet! The best part of most relationships is feeling the way you’re describing! Being so excited to hear his voice, holding your breath til you can see him again. It’s wonderful and terrible and terribly exciting! When you do fall in love, it’ll be just like that but never end!

DarkClouds

June 28, 2005

Ah, that can be a great feeling. Good for you. ~WEAVER

Rachaelmarie

June 29, 2005

ryn: hee hee.. I almost said ‘almost 4 years’ but instead went with the rounded-up number. If I had known it would be such a popular entry I would have done a better job on it. It was really just me spewing my feelings about his speech, i.e. I did not run all over the internet looking for facts and dates to interject. *waiting patiently for your question* 🙂

That’s a great question. That’s actually the core of the issue. Bush had in mind that he wanted to unseat (go to war against) Saddam during his presidency. So when 911 happened, he twirled around in circles trying to link that to Iraq. He couldn’t, so he lied about it and took us to war. Osama Bin Laden, the one really responsible for 911, is still a free man. And he ain’t in Iraq!

Another thing I’ll say is this: (this shocks some of my friends) He shouldn’t have gone to war there, for this, but since he did he should have done it right. Once again we went into Iraq with less than was needed to get the job done. We should have had TWICE as many troops during the first phases than we did, if we wanted to ‘win’. Most of the problems-particularly the uprising- cont

would not have happened or at least would be considerably lessened if we had had enough people and equipment in the first place.

What I want to know is this..which is the reality..the windmills we chase or what the world actually sees?

Sounds like you are going to be a very happy girl when he does return home. Sometimes that anticipation of waiting for something makes it even better when you get it. Good to hear from you again 😉

ryn: you’re right the Bible already says that it won’t happen yet people are dumb and they keep on trying at something that isn’t to be..sheesh!