In this time of introspection

What color is most reflective of you?
Probably dark green or deep purple. They are complex and darker than colors like yellow and pink.

How did you get the idea for your diary name?
I started by piecing together random words that might fit well togeter. Bleeding Star became a kind of idea of what I was. I used to be a star, someone people looked up to. But there was pain and heartache, and now I’m bleeding. Its just random thinking.

What time were you born?
Around two in the morning

What song are you playing now, or wish you were playing?
I can’t listen to music at work but the song in my head happens to be Konstantine by Something Corporate.

Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
When Chris Reeves died, I did a little bit. I think my grandfather is a celebrity, but that’s only in my little corner of the world.

What color underwear are you wearing?
Black, how sexy…

Do you want a baby?
Yeah, definitely. Someday with the right guy at the right time. I want to have kids.

What does your mom do for a living?
She’s a public school music teacher and the choir director at church. She’s also a wife and a mom. Those are full-time jobs there.

What does your dad do for a living?
He’s an attorney, one of the partners of his firm, the church organist and a lifetime volunteer firefighter. He’s actually a fire commissioner too.

What is your pet’s name?
Chessie, for short. I suppose her “full name” is Chesapeak and Ohio Rail System Cat, but I only call her that when I’m pissed.

What color are your bedsheets?
Light green with leaves

What song are you playing now?
Well, now the music in my head happens to be “Windmills of Your Mind”

What was the last concert you attended?
Matchbook Romance headlined and The Academy, Hidden in Plain View and Midtown opened

Who was with you?
Kaba, but we met up with a few of my friends and made some new friends in the mosh pit.

What was the last movie you saw?
God, in a theatre? I have no idea. I saw Mission Impossible on TV over the weekend if that counts.

Who do you dislike most at this moment?
This very instant, probably my boss, she’s being annoying.

What food are you craving right now?
Nothing really, just coffee

Did you dream last night?
Nope, slept like a rock

What was the last TV show you watched?
The Odd Couple, last night while I was falling asleep.

What is your favorite piece of jewlery?
Probably my Celtic cross necklace. It almost never comes off.

What is to the left of you?
The huge pile of files I should be working on, the edge of my desk, Julia’s desk and then Julia herself.

What was the last thing you ate?
The diner combo platter last night, chicken wings, chicken fingers, mozarella sticks, onion rings, and french fries.

Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
Probably my ex, Manny.

Write a song lyric that’s in your head.
And if this is what it takes just to laugh with my mistakes
And live with what I did to you and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock; It’s 11:11
And now you wanna talk.
It’s not hard to dream. You’ll always be my Konstantine

What song is that from?
Konstantine by Something Corporate

Who last imed you?
I think Kyle last week. I rarely go online anymore. Not enough time.

Where is your signifigant other right now?
If I consider my signifigant other as Mike, I don’t really know. Maybe with his uncle working in Jersey. Maybe still sleeping in bed (lazy bum). Maybe down at Union Hall looking for work.

Do you have a crush?
Yeah, I guess.

What is his name?
Mike

What shampoo do you use?
Suave

When was the last time you cut your hair?
God, I don’t even know. I cut it when I came home from Michigan, but that was like 2 years ago this Christmas. I think I had it trimmed last summer or something, but I really don’t remember.

Are you on any meds?
Caffeine?? Not currently.

Do you have a mental disease?
I was diagnosed bi-polar 2 this past February, but my dad doesn’t believe its true.

What shirt are you wearing?
White button up blouse, with 3/4 sleeves

What color is your razor?
I think it’s orange now. I don’t really pay attention.

What is your fave frozen treat?
Caramel Frappucino from Starbucks

Are you sexy?
Oh yeah. That’s me. Sexy red-head. Riiiiiight

Whats your favorite shopping store?
Lane Bryant, Amazon, Best Buy, and Payless

Are you thirsty?
No, coffee overflowth my cup…..actually I do need more. I’m just too lazy to get up and get it right now.

Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
Yeah, I can. I just don’t know who the groom will be. It might be Manny, who knows!

Tell me something obvious about you.
I overanalyze everything.

Tell me something about you that many don’t know.
My best friend growing up was an imaginary boy named Sallie. And you know what? I actually miss him.

What is your biggest fear?
Failing. Never amounting to anything. I’m afraid I’ll die one day and everyone will say, “She had so much potential. But she never went anywhere with it.”

Do you normally go the safe route or take the short cut?
Depends on how dangerous the short cut is.

Name one thing you want that you can’t buy with money.
The amount of potential and self-assurance I had at the end of my senior year. I could have gone anywhere and done anything. I lost that somewhere.

What is your most treasured possession?
My necklace is pretty important to me. My oboe and English horn are up there too.

What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do often?
Smoke cigarettes. Stabotage opportunities. Buy too much on Amazon when I’m upset…..the list goes on

Tell me something sexually about you that people don’t know.
When I lost my virginity, he told me that wouldn’t have guessed it. And I quote, “How did you skip to chapter 6 if you’re only a virgin? DAMN!”

Tell me something sexually about you that everyone knows.
I don’t know if EVERYONE knows, but I had a drunken one night stand in my best friend’s camper.

What is your favorite lie to tell?
“I’m fine. Nothings wrong.”

Name something you’ve done once that you can’t wait to do again?
Travel to Scotland without my parents.

Are you the jealous type?
I try not to be jealous, but I think it manifests itself in my insecurities. My friends spend too much time with someone else, I feel left out and alone. But not really jealous.

What is the one person, place or thing you can’t say no to?
Probably Manny. I mean, if he asks something that is really important,