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I want what I can’t have and I have what I can’t want. I’m in such a blah mood. Manny and I broke up for like the millionth time. I swear I feel like I’m in a soap opera. But the thing is, to the “outside world” (anyone but me and Manny) its stupid, this going out, breaking up cycle. But to me and him, its something. Don’t know what. Do know how, but its just something only we understand. And I’m tired and I’m not and I’m young and I’m hopeless. I’m out too. Heather and I are going to a party.