Sammy UGH!!!

Sammy can be so annoying. He knows there are things I’m not telling him, but he always brings it up and then I feel guilty listeing to his “you have things that i don’t know. its ok.” Its really annoying. Its like he’s humoring me or something. And I figured out why I’m so scared to break up with him. I tried to break up with him once. And he basically said he would never leave me alone. He would stay outside my door, yelling my name and pounding on the doors until I came out. Ok, and in some context that is really sweet and I know he didn’t mean it in a bad way at all. But I was already upset about stuff. And I got this image of Sammy stalking me and never letting me go. It already feels like that. Like hes smothering me and forcing me to stay in the relationship, which is really hogwarsh and if I wanted to “get out” i really could. But that mental image of him pounding on my door while I’m trying to escape him is really disturbing. Ugh. Oh well. I’m going to bed now.