12/27/02

And then it was Christmas Eve. Grandma was complaining because I was still in bed at 10. So sorry that some people want to sleep. Christmas Eve services went off pretty ok. I was running a rat race. I said to someone the only thing I didn’t do was preach and walk down the aisle on my hands! But it didn’t really feel like it was Christmas. I still can’t believe that its here and gone already. It doesn’t feel like it. So after the last Christmas Eve service we went to the pastor’s house for a little while, which was fine, but I was tired and stressed and the smile on my face was really beginning to sag. So we didn’t get home till about 3am or so. And I stayed up to wrap presents. I had a drink then too. Went to bed around 6am and didn’t get up until noon. I had another drink and we opened presents. The one really cool thing about Christmas Day was that it was snowing like crazy. And I did get some good presents, but whatever. My grandmother just gets on my nerves was too easily. When Mommy got up to get more food I asked for another drink. Grandma was in the bathroom and yes that is an important fact. She was busy making something and she said yes without really thinking about it. And so I got another. That bottle was half empty in the living room and Grandma was like “I’m drinking you under the table. I already finished,” or something to that affect. And I said no that’s my second bottle. And Mom was like did you ask for it? And I said yes and my grandmother jumps in and is like, “You did not! I do not remember you asking for another one!” She like jumped down my throat. I was a very good girl, but I was pissed! Christmas dinner was good, but strained and I was tired. I went to bed relatively early. Thursday was a better day. We all went out to breakfast. Mommy and I got my license and the insurance all sorted out so I could drive. I picked up Heather and we went to go see Deb, which was really nice. We went to Wendy’s for food and to see Jamie. He gave us so many fries it was crazy. Then we saw Sweet Home Alabama. It was really cute and funny and cool. I like that song. Anyway it was good. Todd was having a party at his house and Manny wanted me to come. I talked briefly to Russ online and he wanted me to come too. This was going to be a band party that lasted all night and no parents were home. HMMMM can you say drinking? So we thought about going after the movie. We were driving around and we passed Kim’s house and then saw John’s car. It was nuts. We pulled over and talked for a little while. And he wanted to know what we were doing and I was like probably going to Todd’s. Anyway we talked for a while, then Kim snuck out of her house and we basically drove around to a little while. Then on Myers, John pulled over and I figured he was just deciding not to follow us anymore. So I let them go. Heather and I drove around my high school to see the new additions. Then we went to try and find Todd’s house, but we couldn’t find it. So we thought to go back to my house and I could get medicine for my knee which hurt and look up his number. And I saw John’s car. It had overheated. Something was boiling or whatever, so I brought Kim and John back to my house and they ended up crashing on my bed for about 2 hours while his car cooled down. Heather and I found and went to Todd’s. Almost everyone was drunk so it was nuts and I was to the point that if there had been any left and I didn’t have to really drive anywhere – I would have gotten drunk too. Least I would have tried to. Russ came out and gave me a hug and was like “You decided to come!” And Lange came out and gave me a hug too. That made me feel loved for a ton of different reasons. And I told Lange I had seen his sister Christmas Eve and he was like yah, but don’t tell her about this! I just laughed and said, I know how to keep secrets. He was sober enough that he laughed but went inside. Settle had to go home by 2am, so I drove him to his car around then and I could talk to him for a little while. That was good. I need some time with Settle. It would be good. So Settle’s gone and I went back to Todd’s. When I walked in I got a ton of people being like, “Kate’s back! Yeah!” It was funny. Drunk people are just funny sometimes. I needed to talk to Manny so I sent Heather back to sit in the car and listen to the radio. And Manny and I talked. About the whole Ali ordeal and what was wrong and why it all pissed me off and everything. Well, no not everything. A lot was left unsaid, but that’s ok. It was a start and the rest will come out eventually. I went back to my house to get John and Kim. John drove his car home. I asked him if he wanted me to follow him just in case and he said no. Wrong answer. I didn’t find this out till later, but his car did overheat again and he ended up walking like a mile home. I felt really bad, but he gave me a look and said it ok, he needed the walk. I took Kim home, because his car was acting up. Then I went back to Todd’s.