Messiah, stupid oboes…..

Yah so its been a while and I haven’t written and a lot has happened so its time to try and write everything out. I’m going to try and start at the begining but theres more interesting stuff at the end. Just trying to keep my thoughts organized.

OK so Manny and I had the weird fight but not. Well it was. And I was upset and i think he was too. And maybe it was a bit extreme but I suggested we cool off and take a break until I get home for Christmas. I had finals and other shit to deal with and I needed to get through all that before I dealt with him. Anyway we agreed no calls, no emails, no ims till I got home. I had long late Messiah rehearsals and concerts and the end of classes so I was stressed out. And then DeYoung (band prof) calls me up and chews me out for dropping band. He was a really jerk. “Who gave you permission to drop band?” I was like wtf!! I don’t need permission. Its a class and I don’t need it. Anyway, he now refuses to get me a new oboe teacher. And that was the opening night of Messiah. So I was upset during all that. And the fact that I couldn’t talk to Manny was driving me a little batty. Oh and Weds (the day before) I had my oboe jury. I know I probably sounded fine and all. But it was nowhere near my best. It was like less than 50% of what I used to be. And I hate that. I feel like a deflated balloon. Anyway, Manny wasn’t around for that and he wasn’t around for DeYoung’s chewing me out. And I wanted him to be there, but I started to realize that it was ok that he wasn’t there. And in the long run it was for the better. I needed to be a bit more independent and stand on my own two feet for a while. Him being there is fine, but he tends to sweep me up off my feet and carry me away. Anyway, I was a little miserable, but it was getting bearable. Saturday night I went to this concert for Emani with a few ladies and their daughters. It was really cool. Seeing these two black guys rapping in church was cool. I didn’t feel great cause of that whole PMS thing, but thats ok. It was still fun. Sunday I went and played at some Catholic church with Amy a flute from band. It was really cool. The music was good and easy, but beautiful. My reeds cooperated for the most part. And I’m getting paid $50 a service! My jaw dropped when he told us how much we would get. But hey, I’m not turning down that kind of money.

Anyway I had stayed up all night Sat-Sun because Sat Manny immed me and we kinda made up but not completely (long story for later) so when I got back to school, I was tired. But Rach and Anna and I were going to make muffins for our Secret Santa things. So Rach and I went shopping. We went with Erin who has been dubbed the mega shopper, in and out and everything we needed in like 30 mins! It was cool. I got fixins for pancakes which I’ll make either tonight or tomorrow. Depends on when I get some sleep. Anyway – making the muffins was an adventure. Someone had used our oven and melted plastic in it, so we had a kitchen filled with blue smoke and fun. We ended up going upstairs to use the 3rd floor oven, but man it was certainly an adventure. But the muffins were good and the people liked them so that was cool. I wanted to sleep, but Ryan was here and I couldn’t. And I had to go to the secret Santa thing. Which was cool. I got cool socks and Jennie got some nice glasses. Everyone had fun. By the time I got back to go to bed I was like awake again. ARG! So I watched part of Shrek (which made me think of Tim ARG!) and then stuck in X-Men Evolution cause I figured that was simple enough it would put me out. Which it did. Real quick. Something was going on with Jennie tho, cause she was up late talking on the phone and being worried, but I kept my nose out of it. Her business (which she did explain later. But thats not a huge deal to me and its not my story so I ain’t spillin’ here).

I slept most of Monday away, but it was ok. I had forgotten to call Mommy and Daddy on Sunday so I called on Monday and told Mommy about the whole DeYoung thing and the church thing and other stuff. It was cool. And I talked to Daddy. I figured out my whole license thing and whatnot. He kinda gave me an ultimatum about oboe teachers. I need to call and/or meet with the oboe teachers around here before I go home so we can make informed good decisions, since DeYoung is being an ass about it all. So I have a call into one of them and an email to another. I kinda feel that if I have to finish out the semester – I just want to stay with Cindy. Maybe take a few lessons with that Miller dude, but not too big of changes. I’m not staying here, so I don’t want to switch Cindy. I’m starting to get used to it all. Anyway, I’ll tell Daddy something after I hear from these people. Mommy sent me an email and told me that I should go talk to Stapert, but hes a big pushover and DeYoung will just be an ass. Oh and by the way. I’m not in band right? No oboe is band. Well, DeYoung cornered Marie and she says he blackmailed her into doing it. Anna and I say he got her to do it because she can’t just say no and get over it. So shes pissed at me bc she ‘hasn’t to be in band’. Bullshit! She doesn’t need him anymore that Ruthie or I do. Shes just a pushover. Whatever I really don’t care at this point. The only thing I really will miss is Anna, because she is really cool and she and I are pretty good friends. Shes really awesome. Anyway shes graduating. Marie hates me, but Ruthie is still cool. Ok, moving on.